The Easiest Thing

 

My happy place

Since becoming divorced, the most common question I get is, "How are you going to take care of the farm by yourself?" and although no one acts like they believe me, my answer is always : "It's actually probably one of the easiest things I do in my life". Ahhhh, the look I get. Or the skepticism I receive in return. Or the constant 'concern' from some. Of which none of this phases me. We don't know what we don't know. It's hard for others to really know and understand what it takes to run the farm, sell eggs, buy and keep feed for the animals, and the general care and upkeep of not only the animals but the property and buildings. 

There's a secret I have learned in this endeavor: keep it simple. I've narrowed down things around the farm. Such as the 4 self-feeding feeders for the chickens. The water buckets near water sources for easy filling. A weekly barn clean rather than daily. A am and pm feeding time that all animals expect, and know where to be for their particular feeding (horses, pig, goats, and livestock guard dogs, as the sheep and chickens self-feed). Feed in the Tack Room is placed in a manner for easy access and storage. I have an 'egg table' I use to prep the eggs for sale. Everything is in it's place and there's a place for everything. And after the barn remodel recently, I'm happy to report that it has made my life even easier. And another happy update to report: all the chickens are sleeping in the barn now. No one is being silly and trying to sleep outside on the fence. This is very important to me as winter approaches. I really want everyone as warm and comfortable as they can be. 

How can you say no to this girl

Hope reminds me daily how to
love and live life ❤️‍🩹

Over the years, I've learned so much about all this farm stuff. I had no idea whatsoever what I was doing when I first started out. I was just bouncing along trying to figure it out. Let's just say there was a tall vertical learning curve. Luckily, I've failed forward time and time again. Just like in ultra running, a DNF (did not finish) is at times, considered more valuable than a finish in a race. Why? Because we learn when we fail, or at least are given an opportunity to learn, and attempt to figure out how to do better and what changes one might make to be more successful in the future. The question for me is, when I fail at something, do I take that as an opportunity to improve. That's key. And I try to fail forward. Sometimes I make mistakes multiple times before I realize this. But hey, I try to try - and give myself full credit for it. 

I'm happy to say I'm at a place in my life where caring for the farm is one of my most favorite things I do, besides run and bike which are also still a couple of my favorite things to do in life. I'm fortunate I can still do these things and will keep at it until I can't. I'm happy to report that everyone on the farm is doing well! And I'm doing well, too. Wait, no, not well, I'm doing great. 

Who's not doing so great

Like millions of children worldwide do, Olive contracted RSV.

It was Halloween and the pediatrician and 
staff were all Frozen characters

As you are probably well aware, RSV is no joke. RSV hospitalizes thousands of children each year, and leaves many with reactive airways that take time to recover from. While some who get RSV have a mild case, many infants can have a severe case that causes a need for further medical assistance. The CDC reports that RSV is the leading cause of infant hospitalization in the U.S. 

Once Olive was diagnosed, she had already seen her pediatrician once and was suspected of having RSV. The next day, and another visit to the pediatrician because she was worsening at a exponential rate, she was tested and shown to be positive for RSV. That night, she was in the ER with low oxygen sats and high heart rate as her body tried to compensate for the struggle to breathe. She was sent home from the ER once they were able to stabilize her. And it was the next morning that another ER visit due to breathing complications bought her a stay in the hospital. 

It was a scary time for Lauren and Ryan having a child, like millions do, with RSV who struggle to breathe. So many people have 'RSV stories' much like we have 'birth stories'. It's a traumatic experience to have a child in respiratory distress. Thank goodness for health care, health care workers and wonderful hospitals who care for these 2, 3 and 4 month old babies who are wading their way through the river of an insurmountable amount of sticky icky mucous in their lungs and nasal cavities along with fever as the trump card to make them feel even more awful. 

The interventions? Regular suctioning of the nasal cavity, albuterol breathing treatments, fluid via IV, humidifier, and in some babies, supplemental oxygen and feeding tubes. It's hard for babies to take a bottle when they can't breathe through their nose. If I had to guess, you have experienced this personally with your own baby or know someone who has. It's like the covid except the infant version, RSV. Ugh. Poor Olive. All those poor babies suffering. Heartbreaking to watch. 

Hard to see the tiny ones so sick

I'm happy to report that Olive is on the mend. She's still (what we call in the health care world) gunky. She's still recovering. But wow, what a marvelous corner she turned and started getting better slowly, and then faster. If only all the RSV infants could be that lucky. We are most grateful, and Lauren and Ryan may need therapy after all that excitement. How'd Brooks do through it all? He did great, and he knew his sister was sick and in the hospital. But he doesn't know to worry yet. We as adults will teach him that unfortunately. There has to be a place in this world, somewhere, where worry is not a thing. Worry does absolutely nothing except take up room in our brain rent-free. Eckhart Tolle once said : Worry is a waste of time. Either do something about - or let it go. 

I think about that each time I fall into worry. I think: 1) what can I do about the situation concerning me, and 2) if I can not do anything about it, I let it go. I pass it onto my higher power, God to deal with. He's got it all under control.

Brooks did not worry. I did not worry. Olive was receiving care and being well taken care of at the hospital and I was so glad she was there. 

Matter of fact, Brooks and I were at home while Ryan and Lauren were at the hospital, and he was busy helping me feed the animals, play outside, and regular life things. He waited for things to get better knowing that they would and they did. Kids are naturally great at that until they are taught otherwise. Anxious parents create anxious children, and if only we could not gift that anxiety to them. But that in itself takes self awareness and a mission to make change in our own life, to combat that. The world does not deserve children. So innocent and pure. Unknowing of what's to come. 

I digress. I'm happy to report Olive is recuperating and doing great considering everything she's gone through. That makes us all beyond happy. And grateful. And amazed at what the human body can do. 

It better be good news this time

Speaking of the human body, more good news. My recent change to monthly blood cancer treatments is going well. So well in fact, that I get to stay monthly unless my lab numbers say otherwise. I no longer feel like I live at Texas Oncology. Polycythemia Vera is a progressive blood cancer, yet right now, my PV is staying relatively stable.

Cancer is interesting. If you survive it (David) or if you are stable and considered doing well by your oncologist (Cyndi) then somehow it's seen as a personal victory, as if we had something to do with that outcome. Both David's, as well as my own oncologist, consider us great cancer patients. They tell us that. Like we have anything to do with our cancer status. It's kind of funny because the cancer is out of our control, and we are seeking treatment (or in David's case, sought treatment) and we get the credit for doing well. Funny how that works. I just nod and agree, like I have anything to do with it. The reality is that when I say, "Back at cha" to my oncologist, he smiles and we silently know it's a team effort. I know I'm just freaking lucky. Not everyone draws the 'doing well' card. And I'm aware enough to know I have to give that card back one day. 

For now though, I'm doing the things I want to do while I can still do them. One of them being to run.

I happen to be out on a run Sunday morning, and stopped to take in the beauty all around me. I reflected on how I was feeling in that moment, and felt one with the road. This area is on a route I've not run for a bit and there's a reason for that. As I traveled down the road only a bit further, I came to a favorite spot in the valley where a stream trickles, the leaves in the trees rustle with the wind, and squirrels play freely without a care in the world. This particular spot always makes me smile and I would (and still do) always pause there. 

Peace ☮️ 

And then I realize why I haven't allowed myself to run there in a long while. While that spot is so spectacular, it always reminds me that I'm not picking that in my own life. It's a spot where my 'knowing' reminds me that I'm not being true to myself. It's a spot that reminds me life can be so beautiful and free if only I would chose that. It's a spot where happiness would crash straight on with sadness and remind me that I wasn’t being true to me. 

Something about this spot 🥰

It's at this very spot where God would whisper in my ear each and every time I ran through it "isn't this so beautiful" and follow it up with "are you being true to you?" and I would lie to both of us, each time and answer yes. I knew what I was doing. I knew I was not being truthful to my own self. Lying to myself. Which ultimately caused me to begin the process of not trusting myself. 

She waits, this little heart of mine

Ahhh, what a sad place to be when you cannot trust yourself. I knew what to do. I just didn't do it, for a thousand reasons which none of them made sense, but I pretended they made sense. I was staying in a marriage that I knew was not good for my own emotional well-being. And knowing there's no such thing as one way liberation. I would need to liberate us both. And so I did. 

So on this Sunday, it was the first time that God did not whisper that to me. I had set myself free and this time, pausing to enjoy the moment, taking in the smells, the sights, the breeze on my face and the sunlight on my skin but most importantly, knowing I was being true to myself now. I was able to fully enjoy this amazing place knowing I had made the hard decision to be true to myself and move forward with life - on my own. It was the first time I was at this spot and felt safe. I felt free. I also felt like I set both David and I free. 

You see, the dark of night (after separation and divorce) brings clarity - if your willing to let it in. Denial can be strong in these situations, which can block the clarity. I've worked hard on letting in the harsh reality of what I was doing in my marriage. I'm still working on accepting the various responsibility of my part in this rupture and what exactly I was doing to make things worse for both David and I. I even started making a list, to remind myself of what I need to work on so that I can try not to carry it further in my life. Lofty goal, yes. Yet, in order to move forward in my life, I need to accept responsibility for my own behaviors and work on forgiving myself. Along with learning to trust myself. I'm only accountable for me, and I have some accounting to do, people. 

This brings me back to the places and roads I run that bring about feelings of unhappiness because of something that was happening at a given time in my marriage. Kind of like certain music often reminds people of particular situations or feelings. In my case, routes/places of which I run often remind me of feelings and things that have happened in my own life, specifically in my marriage. And unfortunately, they have not all been fond.

And as much as David and I tried to figure out an answer to what I call 'chronic conflict', what I learned is that sometimes there is no answer. Therefore letting one another go is the nest step. What we often perceive as being with someone for a lifetime is sometimes really just being with someone for a season. And the acceptance of that can be daunting. 

Yet, in many ways, this is good news for David and I. To let one another go. There comes a time to move forward so not to destroy one another. It sounds dramatic, but let me tell you, chronic conflict does not bring out the best in me. Esp over long periods of time. Sometimes I felt like a bystander in my own life, falling back on my ambivalence. And that did not serve me well. 

One thing I know for sure is that chronic conflict does not look pretty on me, I'll tell you that. I tried to make it look good, be good, and paint him perfect through it all. But even I have a breaking point. I can now say that my 'knowing' reminds me often that I made the right decision. Grieving and sadness is part of this process, but the ability to say, hey, I'm truly happy, feels damn good. 

I know what your next question is, too. How's Lauren? How's the house dynamics now? Well, that’s for another day. For now, it's back to running the old routes that I miss and making new memories on those familiar roads. I’ll be looking at life from a new and different perspective on these well-run roads. Knowing I'm coming home to me. 

And soon to be 60,

Cyndi

The favorite part of my day

We all have it, a favorite part of our day we really look forward to. Sometimes it's on the weekends and sometimes it's a particular time in each of our days, and sometimes it might be on a day off work but there's likely a part of the day we really love. Mine is when I go to the barn.....but you probably already knew that. 

Love you to the barn and back

Over the years, you have seen in this blog the constant changes inside (and outside) the barn. Let's see, stalls for sheep and/or lambing. Movement of the chicken coop or additions of roosting spots and bars. Makeshift stalls for the horses. Feed and hay over here then feed and hay moved over there. It's probably been exhausting to watch and at the same time, it's been my every dream come true. 

Most people love to move the furniture in their living room around, or in their bedroom. I love to move things around in my barn. And lately, since it's me, myself and I caring for everyone in the outside world on the farm, I decided it was time for a barn remodel. Mainly, the elimination of the wood flooring on the easterly part of the barn. That wood floor has seen some things. Sheep poo, sheep lambing extracts (blood, placenta, you get the idea) and primarily, chicken ick. And you know how wood is.....it's like your mother-in-law, unforgiving. 

This wood floor has served me well, but it's time
for it to go. 

I plan on using this space for roosting opportunities
for the girlz. I still have about 18-20 hens sleeping 
outside, and I'd like to woo them inside before it gets cold.

Then on the westerly side of the barn (this is all inside the barn mind you) I had the flooring taken up there which was huge heavy barn mats to find underneath it all was (drum roll) dirtish gravelish stuff.

The flooring on this westerly side of the barn was 
primarily thick black mats, which was okay. But
now both sides of the concrete (which is down the middle
of the barn) will be gravel, and 
chickens love to scratch around in gravel.

Surprisingly, no mice were found in the removal of any of the barn flooring (esp under the wood floor) which was shocking because I had recently just discovered I had a mouse family living inside my over/stove inside my house nesting in the insulation that surrounds the oven itself, who feasted on the appliance wires along with whole pieces of bacon underneath the stove that I have no idea how that got there. The mouse family could live there as if it were covid times and never leave their cozy little home they made. Until they ate the wrong wire and the oven started smoking and it wasn't even turned on. Long story, but let's just say that it was on Brooks birthday with people at the house and nothing caught fire which was a miracle because if nobody had been home it would have been a different story for sure. That oven/stove is now gone and a new one in it's place that has no mice. I have child and pet-proof mouse "traps" now all around the inside of my house to hopefully prevent that situation again. I never even knew that could be a thing. Mice living inside an appliance, but now I know. 

Wow, I got lost. I was talking about no mice in the barn during the remodel. And probably because there's 130 chickens around that would chase it. So as the flooring on both the east and west sides of the concrete (right down the middle of the barn like a runway) was being removed, a decision of what to put in its place needed to be made. I went with a "base" similar to what's under a real gravel road and then gravel on top of that. Yeah, like a gravel road in my barn. 

So this side of the barn now has plenty of places for the 
chickens to roost and sleep. The gravel has replaced the 
old, stinky wood. 

So I wasn't sure this was a great idea but I did it anyway because that's how I roll in my life now. I'll call it doing Cyndi Things. Turns out, it's working well. Whether it's dirt, gravel, concrete or anything on the floor in a chicken barn, it's going to get dirty and daily and weekly cleaning is necessary. Side note: If you are thinking about getting chickens it will be the best and worst decision you've ever made. Chickens are dirty and one must be prepared to live with chicken poop in their life. Hence, why most people do not chose to have chickens.

This side of the barn now has 2 coops which the chickens
love to sleep on - and in. And all new gravel . The concrete
floor in the barn stayed as it and supports the gravel areas well. 

As you glance over these pics, you'll notice I moved a few things around, and the chickens were not happy about that because chickens hate change. They absolutely hate change and never want anything moved around, esp their roosting spots. 

This is looking right down the middle of the barn. 
It's dusk and the chickens are starting to come in and find
their resting spots for the night.

In order to make my life easier, I've now taken all the chicken feeders and placed them inside the barn. I have 4 big chicken feeders and they each hold 50 lbs of feed. Everyone shares nicely. Even the goats try and eat the chicken feed, too. Now, feeding my chickens is super easy. It's all inside the barn and ready for winter and safe from rain. I still have waters in the barn and outside the barn, but with summer gone, I have far less water buckets out so that's less time, too. 

The one area that did not change was the horses stalls. Those are concrete areas with cush-y mats (for horse hoof comfort) and stayed as is. Dora and Hope are both very used to their am and pm feedings inside the barn. 

Hope, you're looking good! 

The summer fans are being stored in the
horse's area.

Excuse the messy floor, as I typically clean it on the
weekends now. The barn tenants don't seem to mind. 

The routine and rituals inside the barn are what helps ease the work with so many animals. They all know what to expect and when to expect it. Feedings in the am and pm have become easy and not overly time consuming. I also only clean the barn weekly now, and since it's never going to rain again, mowing has gone down to almost zilch. Farm chores are actually a time for me to bond with my fur and feathered farm animal friends and make sure everyone is okay, fed and watered. The best part is all the pets I'm able to give to everyone as less time on chores means more time for the animals (CoCo The Goat, Dora the Mini, and Maggie The Pig are all very fond of pets as are many of the chickens) and the love I receive in return is not measurable on a scale. It's infinity. 

The amount of love, joy and abundance I receive is what fills my cup up every morning, and what brings peace to my day each evening.

It was during this remodel that I did begin the process of putting up some summer things (think fans and extra water buckets) and begin bringing out winter things such as doors and walls that need to be placed back on some of the coops (for warmth from the cold, eventually). 

During the extreme heat of the summer, I remove
the nesting box doors and also the door(s) to the
coop(s) because it just gets too hot in there for them.
It's time to start putting them back on now.

So in this remodel, I've moved the nesting boxes around which the chickens hate when I do that and I try not to do that often. 

I've added the nesting boxes here.

And the best part? Paul is super excited that he has his mirror back and his special perch (saw horse) where he stays much of the time, staring at himself. He perches on top of the saw horse each evening/night and sleeps there. He's also one to sleep in, and is usually last off his roost in the mornings. 

His saw horse roost in now in front of
his mirror and he loves his "area"!

Forever admiring

Forever nearby

This is probably one of my favorite changes to the barn remodel, is Paul's Area. He absolutely loves it - and deserves it. He's one of a kind and he better live forever or my heart might actually break in two. Did you hear that Paul? Featherever. Never leave me.

I had a problem initially though. Coco was occupying the mirror so much, I had to move Paul's perch over in front of his mirror to keep CoCo from playing with her new goat-friend in the mirror, much less that I was afraid she was going to break the mirror. 

Eventually CoCo left her new friend in the mirror alone, so Paul could have his mirror back. I'm often reminded of the personalities the animals all have. They are varied and remind me of humans. Each farm animal has their very own distinct personality and we as humans disassociate from that as we eat them for food. But it's true. Each animal is special, and I love learning from them and observing their behaviors and watching their personalities develop and evolve. CoCo is super social yet Pearl wins the beauty contest around here for her gorgeous white fur and stunning blue eyes, but she could never actually receive an award as all the confetti falling from the ceiling would cause her to faint. I try not to scare her because I hate to see her fall over. It's funny and sad all at the same time. 

Pearl waits for me right here 💕

I'm also happy to report that Belle and Lulu are living out their senior years in the back pasture and are doing great. And as I type this, I realize that Noah from the Ark would be proud. I have many animals "in two's". 2 goats, 2 sheep, 2 ducks, 2 mini horses, Maggie The Pig almost qualifies for being 2 pigs-in-one as she's a big girl for sure, and Paul counts as 2 because his friend in the mirror actually counts as his +1. Even Maybe and Sugar are so bonded they could be a true pair. And 2 sets of Great Pyrenees brother/sister combos of Levi and Whisper, and Dutch and Penny. Yes, Noah, we are also a fan of animals going Two by Two with the exception that there's no reproduction happening on this ark farm.

And with this new configuration and remodel of the barn, things seem to have settled down and everyone is finding their roosting place again. Some in similar places and others finding new places to roost for the night. 

The chickens are really enjoying the jungle gym that Sheryl's
family brought to the farm for Brooks. I found the chickens
use it far more than any children do, and that's okay. 

Sometimes a child's play gym is really a
chicken roost in disguise.

The one thing I know for sure is that a sleeping chicken is a pooping chicken. So, what I've had to do is place black mats under each roosting area so that I can clean up the poop easier. The gravel is great but it's easier to clean a flat surface, and now that all the mats are under the chicken sleeping areas, I think I'm set. I'm so pleased with the new remodel, the new changes and the new feel that the barn has. It makes me happy and I love seeing all the animals happy, too. Now, if I just just lure those last few chickens roosting outside to come inside the barn, I'll really be happy. Silly chickens. Winter is coming.

And while I clean up my own life, I'm cleaning up the things 
around me. I've taken down this feeding area outside the barn.
It's now an area where they dust bathe.

I had forgotten what driving up to the house looks like with
all this gone.

(This is the BEFORE pic)
The chickens used this area before, and actually still do, except 
there's no fencing now. The fencing was to keep out Maggie,
the sheep and the goats out of the food in this area,
but that's not an issue any longer.

Lots of changes inside and outside the barn. Lots of changes in my own life. I'm happy to report everyone is doing well. Brooks turned 3, Olive is almost 4 months old and I started to include much of that in this post, but realized I'd break the blog because it would be so long. So I'll leave you with this:

3 years old now

Olive gets the award for the most smiles

Watching Lauren with these
two sweeties is the joy of 
my life 💝

We'll cover all the changes from inside the actual house, next time. You know me. I gotta get my barn settled to settle my soul. I can check that off my chick list and cock-a-doodle do my next project. 

Til then,

Cyndi

The chickens have made a request

 

Recently, the chickens had a good idea. They sent Pecky Becky to report their request: a remodel of their barn - and I think it's a great idea!

Barn Re-Do Please

One of the Before pics:

The old wood floor and the lambing stalls are a couple of items included in the remodel. And so it begins......

Once complete, I'll let you know how it turns out! I just know the chickens are gonna love it. 

A New Settlement

There's no justice to the way tragedy visits us 

We all have unsettling and difficult times in our lives, some people more than others. When hard times fall upon us, that's when we are provided the privilege to determine if we move through it with an open heart and listening ears or stay true to our old ways. 

It's my turn to make this determination. Because as some know and others do not, here's a recent announcement David and I made to close family and friends:

Dearest friends, we wanted to share some information with you today. After much thought, discussion, reflection and loving consideration, we have made the decision to separate and divorce. We are much better friends to one another, and look forward to supporting each other as we always have in our lives. There are no sides, there is just us. You may find us sitting on the patio together, visiting with you  together, or sharing a meal together. We felt it important that you know so it would not come as a surprise when we have the opportunity to hug your neck sometime soon. Please also know that we are uncoupling amicably and with understanding and compassion for one another. 

Untying the knot is never easy, yet we will continue to strive to do right by one another. With grace and love, Cyndi and David

Cool Change

In this particular season of my life, I've began noticing how often one of my favorite songs, Cool Change by The Little River Band is coming through the speakers of my truck. It has always reminded me that spending time alone - and in nature - is healing, needed and often wanted. Each time I hear it, it's as if it's speaking to me directly. It's time for a cool change. 

Although many may not or will not understand why this decision has been made, I know that others will place their judgment, opinions and their own past experiences to mine, as it seems to be human nature to do this to one another and often times without even knowing we are doing it. And although many will want to know the nitty-gritty of the why's, I understand that it's mine to keep. And it's mine to share if I desire to do so. At this time, it's best for me to stay focused on myself. 

I've watched many folks around me in the last many years who've divorced and I've watched closely how they act and what they say. Many of whom I've taken a page out of their book on how to navigate the road ahead and how society around you will react. You see, many people see divorce as shameful and quite frankly, as failure. Yet, for me, I see how divorce can be healing and beneficial. I see it as a path back to me. 

This keep happening

It's the patterns and cycles that dictate the direction a relationship is steered. Many patterns are good for a relationship and others not-so-good. As I contemplated whether to stay or go in my own relationship, I had to recognize that I would be grieving either way. Because each path requires me to trade something for something else. I made the hard and difficult decision that leaving the relationship would then allow me to see where my choices and actions would match my core beliefs, values and true self. There were parts of me that I lost along the way in my marriage and I now know that they are not lost forever. 

Stay true

Once our decision was made, David and I agreed on many things and one of them was the salvage of integrity. We both desire the respect and dignity for not only ourselves, but for the other. Tearing each other apart is never beneficial for anyone. 

So as we stay true to ourselves, we also try very hard, and I mean very hard to treat each other with decency during the messy middle of a divorce. Sometimes we have to try to try and that's all we can do on a given day. Sometimes the emotions that are felt in a single day surpass a number that seems greater than the universe allows. Sometimes I cry and sometimes I'm the happiest I've ever been. Yet, all the time.....I know this is part of the process of letting go and grieving. It's hard no doubt. There is an ultimate goal of 'us' to stay friends, and anyone that's been through a divorce can tell you that this isn't an easy goal. We are trying to try, and attempting to talk through feelings as they arise. We don't have to agree. We just need to listen. We need to understand how each of us, all along, were experiencing this marriage very differently. We need to understand how our origin wounds affect our lives now. We need to understand that we ourselves may need to reparent ourselves and heal that inner child within us. We need healing and clarity and this new path gives me a way there. Inner work typically goes unnoticed and unrecognized. The self awareness it takes to recognize its necessary is a bill pill to swallow. 

So as we make our way in this new world, please bare with us. It's easy and hard all at the same time. Regulating emotions during hardship is a work in progress. Right now, I'm busy loving myself, dating myself and taking the crown and putting it back on my beautiful head. 

So what is the new settlement you speak of

I think what I call the new settlement is all of us, yes every last one of us (David, Lauren, Ryan, Brooks and Olive) are all settling in to our new physical and emotional places. We are figuring out what to say and what not to say. For as many years as this has been building, the actual rupture requires understanding and patience from us all. So much learning taking place. So many beautiful gifts we are receiving during this time. Gifts of grace to one another and learning that it's okay that we are where we are at in our lives. The practice of self-compassion is key. We are humans doing human things and we won't necessarily get it right the first, or second time we do things. But we keep trying to try. After all, faith functions best when we don't know what's around the corner. 

Broken crayons still color,

Cyndi

Sweet Souls

Once born, we know only one thing for certain that will happen to us in life. We will die. Everything else is up for grabs with a unknown future of what we will do, where we will go in life, and how long before we make our way back to the earth. The journey of life is so extremely wonderful and challenging and brutiful (brutal and beautiful). We live thinking we will never truly be gone. We pretend-talk we will die, but mostly avoid the topic in general. Too morbid apparently, but eventually......it happens to us all. 

I often think of people who have touched my soul in ways that no other have. People whose paths I've merely crossed for a short moment in time but made an imprint on my soul like no other. Soul healers, if you will. I think of them randomly as they pop into my mind and heart unexpectedly, and I silently reminisce, thinking of what they have said - and not said. I feel warm, comforted and inspired by them. Please let me share a few of these soul healers with you.

Mary Elizabeth and Norris Priest
in front of their L&N B&B 💚

It was May 25th of 2015 and I was running from Venice Beach, CA to Virginia Beach VA (a crossing, as it's called in the ultra running world) when I met this irresistible couple in their 80's, living life next to a L&N railroad track that daily shook their home and the L&N B&B next door that they ran in the small town of Henderson, Kentucky. 

As I was making my way across Kentucky, I had tired of both my usual options of nasty/shabby motels and sleeping outside while hiding myself away at the same time to keep 'safe'. So upon prompting of my good friend, Gates, he encouraged me to vear off my route and side step over a few miles in the town of Henderson to a Bed and Breakfast, for a change. I did just that, and have memories of Mary Elizabeth and Norris that will last a lifetime. I had no idea what I was stepping into when I stepped into their life. Or should I say, when they invited me into their world for a short while. Welcoming me with open arms as if they'd known me for years. 

The best way for me to explain this experience would be to repost my blog from that day, right here, so you could feel as I did when I met them. It was as if I was a puzzle piece that had fallen into their home and life that fit perfectly. I did not want to leave them - or the B&B. It was one of the few places I stayed during my crossing that leaving there actually broke my heart. And saying goodbye to Mary Elizabeth brought tears to my eyes. She's unlike any other I have met in life. A pure human being. 

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Day and Night #55, May 25th - My Favorite (I love the titled I placed on this post at the time 💛)

I started from Morganfield this morning, technically, a late start for me. I needed to sleep in a little (til 6 am!). It would be my usual straight down US60, except for the addition of some rain. It rained off and on, then went to sprinkling only. And after awhile, only dark clouds who threatened more rain, but luckily, never delivered it.

I had my usual entourage of people stopping to inquire if I'm okay, need help, or want a ride. No, thank you, I'm fine. But thanks for stopping! I tell everyone what I'm doing, and then it all makes more sense. Or I'm hoping it makes more sense. One guy in a pickup that offered me a ride to Henderson, saw me on his way back home later in the day. He honked and waved as I was coming into Henderson. I made it, I thought, and he was heading back to where he had come from. It's fun to interact with other people who are also traveling their paths on the road, seeing them multiple times in a day. Almost like friends out on the road.
As I'm getting closer to Henderson, my friend, Gates, texts me about a couple of Bed and Breakfast options. The two motels here are marginal, and a new option would be nice. I call the L&N Bed and Breakfast, as it is furthest across town. I talked to a sweet lady, who said her name was Mary Elizabeth. She tells me about her location, rates, and gave me directions. Then she asks me to call her when I get close, so she can make sure I make it to her B&B okay. How sweet of her, I'm thinking. 
I move on down the road, wondering if I've done the right thing. I think so! They probably have laundry, even food. And she had said I'd be the only guest tonight. As I get into town, and am about 1 1/2 miles away, I call back as instructed. She answers, and we finish making the arrangements, directions and such. I tell her I'm going to stop at the Cancun Mexican Restaurant (for lunch) up ahead first, then stop for supplies, then I'll be there. She says to me, "Just one moment.". And then yells out to her husband whose apparently in the yard, it seems, "Norris, want to go eat lunch at the Cancun Mexican Restaurant??" I can hear him in the background say, "Yes, sounds great!" Mary says back to me in the phone, "Okay, we'll meet you there - to have lunch with you. Let me change my clothes real quick".
Okay then. So we will have lunch together. Just like that. And we did! I got there first, and within 10 minutes, they were there. I introduced myself.......I knew them as soon as I saw them. Turns out, they know everybody. Everybody! Seems the folks in the restaurant were ALL people they knew. I watched as they interacted with the community people there eating, even introducing me to several tables of people eating their lunch. I had just come into this town, and now I'm meeting everyone. I did not know what to do except go with it. And I did. 

Sitting across from them at the Mexican food
restaurant, I had literally just met them, I was in awe.
They didn't know me, yet acted as if they
absolutely knew me. I loved them instantly and
wanted to put them in my pocket and take them
with me always and forever. 

The Priests' have lived here all their lives, as he owns an Insurance Company ("57 steps from his front door") and she has owned and operated the L&N B&B for the last 20 years. I met many people today, with them. At the restaurant, and then again at their house (next door to their B&B). They actually have friends over now (after we get back from lunch), who are also a nice couple sitting with them on a swing on the front porch of their lovely home. At 5:30 pm I'm supposed to go back over to their house to have dinner according to Mary Elizabeth. Roasted chicken, greens and beans. Mary and Norris are special people in this world. They have a gift. Kind, genuine and caring.
I have this huge house (B&B) to myself. I have a coffee maker, laundry, comfy bed, and lots of room to roam......in a house!!!! This is - by far - the BEST place I've stayed. The best. It makes me sad to think I have to leave. I really, really like them, as well.
I went next door to pay, and they won't let me. She just sent me back to "go nap" and rest. Oh, and dinner will be ready soon.
I can't begin to explain what is happening. It just does. My faith is deep that the Lord will care for me, esp while I am out on the road, and He does. My faith is so strong, as He has shown me over and over that things are going to be okay in these "trying" times of crossing the U.S. I never know what is coming up next, it's always a surprise. I can't even predict something like this. Much less imagine it. But I'm blessed with a magnificent 1845 house providing me comfort, warmth, and food. And a cup of decaf coffee, as I blog. (Thank you, Gates, for finding me this most wonderful retreat).
I better get ready for dinner.
Hygiene Report:
I showered in a claw tub with a brass hanging shower curtain rod all around it. The real deal. My bed is marvelous. I melt into it. I did my laundry in the washer in the basement. And I'm ready to eat again. I forgot to mention, I did have a quesadilla at the Mexican food restaurant. So did Norris. I'll put a picture of them on Instagram.
Better get over there. Don't want to be late for dinner!
Cyndi

** Then I followed up the blog the following day to finish writing about my 'favorite day' **

L&N Bed and Breakfast continued.....

I went next door to Mary and Norris's house at 5:30 pm for dinner. Norris was out back planting flowers, Mary was in the kitchen. Since the cornbread was not ready yet, she finished setting the table, while I pulled the chicken apart and cut it up. The beans and greens were bubbling on the stove. We talked and talked, and I began doing the dishes that had accumulated. We each finished, then the cornbread was ready, and she called Norris inside. We all made our plates from the hot food in the kitchen, and took it to the kitchen table in their sunroom, facing their back yard - and the Ohio River. What a view! Their back yard is elegant and well-manicured. As we ate, we watched a mockingbird pulling straw from a hanging plant to take back to its nest. We watched the hummingbirds drink the sweet water they had hanging, and enjoyed the bunnies as they pounced around the green grass. We talked and it was a easy, relaxing meal. They have a very nice life. They have worked hard, and in fact, Norris still walks his 57 steps to his work next door (insurance co) every day. 80 years old. Amazing.
After dinner, Mary and I dished choc ice cream (with choc chips) in cute dessert glasses. It was a perfect ending to our meal of chicken, greens, beans and cornbread. They love relish on their beans, by the way. I began doing dishes again, and she put the food up. Then, she shoo'd me back to the B&B so I could get to bed. I tried to pay for my room, and they would not let me. I appreciate their hospitality and kindness. I hugged them, and said my goodbyes, as I would not see them in the morning. What a grand experience it was.
The bed I slept in at the B&B next door to their own home was upstairs and absolutely more-than-comfortable. It was magical! This B&B is next to RR tracks (hence, the name L&N for the railroad), and the trains came through out the night. They do not blow their whistle, as they go over a bridge and do not interrupt this area directly. And as Mary said, the trains shake the bed. She was right! I did not mind, I'm pretty used to trains by now.
I made fresh coffee in the morning and got my cart rain-ready. I'll head out very shortly. Today, I go to Owensboro. It will be around 35 miles, I think. John is back in Morganfield, and doing well.
I hope your Tuesday is a nice one. And that you enjoyed your Memorial Day weekend. "All gave some, some gave all". I'm thinking of those who serve, and have served this country. I am thankful for them, and our freedom that they provide us.
Cyndi

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As I reread my blog post, my heart sings. How was I this fortunate to cross their path in life. God placed me there, this I know. And now He has Mary Elizabeth front and center to continue her mission of love and acceptance along with Him. I'll see you again one day, my dearest.

Rest easy, my friend.

Mary Elizabeth was extraordinary, raised in a generation where service to others was important - and how you went about it was even more important. She made me feel like her home was mine. When we ate lunch together, it was as if we'd always know one another. Not realizing that could be topped, as we cooked and made dinner together that night, the conversation was easy, relaxing, loving and genuine. She was kind-hearted with a pure soul and loving to all. Thank you Mary Elizabeth. You saved me that day, as I needed you then, and on many days I need you now. You showed me how to move about in the world. Then, and now, you are with me. You gifted me a piece of your essence which I tucked away in my heart, to savor and hold forever. 

And yet, another gift I would be given......

It would be only 12 days later that I would have the divine opportunity to meet Rev. Charles Blankenship. As I was making my way through West Virginia, I arrived at a town called Gauley Bridge. 

I remember being mesmerized by the beauty
upon entering Gauley Bridge.

Now there was not much choice of where to stay here in town. Find a place to sleep outside, or there was a motel on my route that I called to inquire about. That's when a man by the name of Charles Blankenship answered the phone - and another pivot in my life was about to occur. Turns out he's familiar with folks on bikes who are cycling across the U.S.,  along with runners and walkers who are moving down US 60 crossing the U.S. This was not uncommon to him. He is, or should I say, his 'motel' is on the route. Let me repost my blog from this chance encounter with a man of strong faith and conviction. After all, he is Rev. Charles Blankenship.

The church I would attend that evening, where 
he is pastor.

Rev. Charles Blankenship. Wow, where do I start. Let's see, with my blog post:

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Day and Night # 66 - Gauley Bridge

I left the real world, we all know and love, of a hotel that has everything you need, and that's really nice. I left it to make my way out of Charleston, and almost 40 miles to a little town called Gauley Bridge. Along the way, I was near the river the majority of the time. It's a understatement when I say how amazing, astounding and picture-perfect the scenery is. It distracted my attention from my leg, to what was around me. I do confess to multiple doses of alternating Tylenol and ibuprofen. It was the only way. I cannot fix my issue right now, as my lower right leg just wants to be swollen and angry. I'm just going to take my obstacles, as they arise, and move through them. I have to. There is no other option.
As I moved down the road today, I did so with a intentional slower pace, and knew that's what is now required. I enjoyed the day! There were many tiny towns I went through. In Belle, there's a huge Du Pont plant. There's mining all around, and many industrial businesses. And not too much traffic, because it was Sunday, and also the interstate (64) is close by. I loved seeing Kanawha Falls as I came into Ferris Glen. That was so pretty!
I made it to motel, the New River Lodge. There's absolutely nothing new here, in this building. I'm sure of that. I'm actually surprised they are allowed to be open. I don't think the motel-police have been here to inspect lately. The owner, Pastor Charles, is one of the nicest people I've ever met. He's warm, caring, and always seems to be doing for others. According to him, there's a "crippled man who lives in room 7" and he cares for him. He went and got him ice cream before we went to church. There are several other people he was driving around, and taking places. Busy, busy. We left for church at 6:30. He says it will last from 7-9 pm, and try to have me back at the motel by 9:30 pm. I'll get up early and head out, but one nights "short" sleep will be okay.
The church is about 2 miles away. Charles and I drive there in his car. He's got to go get ready for the service, and I meet and talk to several of the congregation. They are wonderful people. A number of them live at his motel. He charges 500.00 a month, all bills paid. He helps these people in many ways. They are regular people like you and I, except they live in a small town.
The church service was from 7-9 pm, as he said it would be. It started with music. All kinds of music, many people in the congregation came up to sing, and they all knew when it was their turn. Like they do that each week, I presume. There is a lot of clapping, raising of the arms, and basically singing gospel songs like "no one is watching". It felt good to let loose, be yourself, with no judgement. I enjoyed every single minute. I clapped, I sang, I listened, I watched, I smiled. There were piano players/singers, several played a guitar, and Jerry played a harmonica (which was my favorite). Charles' daughter played the piano and sang. Beautiful, just beautiful. The sermon was about how we "live above our means materialistically, yet live below our means, spiritually ". Very interesting, and true. Toward the end, at the time of prayer requests, many of the congregation said prayers for me, and my safety. It was just overwhelming. Charles told them I had been on the road for 66 days, and it was all so touching. By the time the service was over, many were crying. I can sum it up by telling you there was no other place I was supposed to be tonight......except there. The music spoke to me, the people were like magnets, asking what they can do. Can they get me dinner? What do I need? I will tell you, I will never forget that church service. Everything in it and about it, was speaking to me. I can't explain it in writing. It was meant to be.
My leg did not get iced, and I will not get much sleep. But my spirit is uplifted, and I feel like I have met people who are true, caring and sincere. I went to a church service at "Brownsville Holiness Church" that was unlike anything I've experienced personally, before. I met a Pastor that lives a life of assistance to others. And it all was a night to remember.
Now, I need to get to sleep. I'm going to get up early, and try to get up some of the mountain before the logging trucks start, and the school buses get on the mountain, too.
More later,
Cyndi

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As a side note, thus far I've been running/walking my way across the U.S. for 66 days, mainly on US 60. I'm blogging each day about my experiences, and please excuse my grammar and punctuation, as I'm reposting my blog from which I wrote mostly either on the side of the road or in a motel that no one would stay at unless, well, unless. Speaking of, let me give you some insight into this motel that Rev Charles provided me the safety and shelter of on my Day 66 on the road:

This was by far one of the toughest places I
stayed. I actually got up in the night and left and 
got back on the road in the darkness.
This was too much for me, despite the
wonderful and touching church experience.

It was difficult for me to blog and even consider being negative about Rev Charles motel, esp when he provides so much kindness and assistance to the needy people in his community. After all, it is a roof over their head. There is access to church and support. He gives so much to the people there and I was privileged to be a witness to this. I realized that he does not have the means to improve the motel. It's crumbling and falling apart at the seams, and he, along with many other people (some of which are his congregation) live at this motel. I struggled greatly with the living conditions there vs providing people with a place to stay and be. I was conflicted about what was happening, but what did I know? I just showed up, was given a room for $20, and offered a ride to dinner and to church. Of which I did all of the above and was left with a knowing of what a truly giving human being really looks like. He looks like Rev Charles Blankenship. 

What I can tell you is I've never met someone like Rev Charles. I've never experienced a church service as I did that fateful evening. I still can replay that entire church experience in my mind like it was yesterday. Rev Blankenship is a true servant of God, doing God's work every day. Leading my example, not just words. I watched him as if I could not take my eyes off of what was happening. He lead the service, then after hours of being there, he sang the last gospel song of the evening solo while I felt like he was staring intently at me as if placing the Lord through my eyes and into my body. The entire service I was glued to my seat and paralyzed, unable to move while witnessing the congregation give witness to their life and to God. 

And on the drive home, though short, I watched as I knew this man never wavers in his faith nor in his mission in his life. In this small town of Gauley Bridge in West Virginia at a church off the beaten path filled with believers, I was gifted the gift of watching and being in the presence of Rev Charles Blankenship. 

He knew not of me or who I was at all. But yet, he welcomed me with open arms to join in his life for a evening. To watch, to learn, to be inspired, and to observe how he serves others. To feed me, to provide a spiritual experience unlike any I've ever experienced. To understand that helping others does not have to include having money, but simply giving of what you do have. To then be given back much greater gifts than money. Thank you, Rev Charles Blankenship. You travel with me even now. Thank you for making sure my cup was filled that blessed night - of caring, of support, of sharing your congregation with me, and showing me what true service in life looks like. You are unforgettable. 

To have come across such impactful people on these chance encounters is something I still find fascinating today, Yet, what I find most fascinating, and now realize why I still-to-this-day think about these special and genuine people still today is this: 

They did not know me. They know God. 

They trust themselves and their knowing. 

They allow people such as myself into their lives for a day - and some for a lifetime. Yet, so many people know of them and of what they do. They add value to their community and love everyone always. 

I will never forget them. I look forward to seeing them again one day, and thank them for their most precious life's work they did, and how they treated others (and myself) day in and day out with love, compassion and commitment. And, they were also fun, funny, and real. It just doesn't get better than that.  

This is exactly how I love to talk about life and death, because it's really more of a celebration. Celebrating the lives of those whose touched our hearts and souls. It helps remind me that death is certain, and is actually a gift that comes along, hand in hand, with life. 

And when I step off the curb, these are the people I can't wait to find and hug. I'll be looking for them.  What a privilege it will be. 

Cyndi

Here comes the sun

I don't know about you, but I'm not sure if it's summertime or I woke up in hell. Either way, the most popular question I get this time of year is ‘How are the animals doing in/with this heat?’

The short answer is 'as well as can be expected'. If I were to stay outside 24/7 this time of year, I think that during the day (esp afternoon times) would be tough. And then the evening and night might "cool" you off, then the cycle starts over. This makes it hard to recover when it's day after day. Overall, everyone is doing alright except I have a couple of chickens who seem unwell. Nothing in particular, just unwell. I've not lost any chickens thus far to the heat which is amazing, but I've also implemented a few changes this year - in and out of the barn. 

First, more waters. Water is key. Water is priority before everything, including food. This year, I've placed many more water sources out (buckets, pails, pans, you name it and it has water in it) inside and outside the barn, and of course all in the shade. 

I have tried and tried to tell them it makes
their water icky. But please know this:
Chickens are dirty creatures and create a dirty 
environment. Somehow I’m okay with this.

I have discovered Paul really dislikes 100+ heat

The chickens (and esp Paul The Turkey) absolutely love to stand in the low water pans to cool themselves off. I also try to spray down the floor of the barn each day to 'cool' it and it also allows the chickens to stand on damp not-as-hot ground. 

This reminds me of when people used to talk around the water
cooler at work. Remember when that was a thing. Like
people actually talking to each other at work in the breakroom. 

And look at you, Paul. Feathers down. 
And also, yes, some of the waters get dirty from standing
in them, but it's part of the deal. They are replenished and 
cleaned in the morning and evening. 

Then outside the barn, I have more water sources for the chickens to honker around because anytime you're next to water in the shade, it's likely just a degree or two cooler - and when they stand in it, that makes it even better. 

Another popular gathering spot, outside the barn

It's almost like I'm interrupting them

Excuse me, I'll leave now

Okay, bye

Also, the dirt bath area in the barn is ideal for cooling off.

Dirt Bathing Area
Sometimes this place is full with standing room only.
Popular Times says: Less busy than usual

The girlz will readily scratch with their feet moving the warm top layer of dirt away and lie down in the cool dirt underneath. They also lay down and spread their wing feathers wide open to cool themselves, looking as if they are discombobulated and in disarray. I'm alarmed each time I see them all spread out like that, yet they are fine. And while the chickens try to stay as cool as possible, I have many who are molting and there's feathers everywhere around here almost like a chicken processing center. But no, it only takes a few chickens be in molt to make this place look like a chicken massacre happened. 

Another downside to this heat is that the girlz lay significantly less eggs when it's this hot outside. With 150 chickens you’d think I’d have a lot of eggs but no. I will when the intense heat subsides though. 

The gifts they give

Currently, due to the extreme heat, I'm also testing a portion of the eggs daily for freshness before I sell them. I’m using the water test of: does the egg float or sink. You want them to sink BTW. 

Yeah it's hot, but still they lay in an egg box
2 by 2......and pant. Silly girlz

Another cooling mechanism the chickens do is pant to cool themselves, and they also tend to stay still in the heat of the day. Luckily, that hot ball of fire disappears from the sky, moving to the horizon, and then finally heads to another part of earth leaving behind darkness and the ability for the animals to catch a break from it's cruel heat. 

The time when peace is found in the barn

I won't pretend to know what it's really like to be in the barn 24/7. I do know that fresh water and cold foods/treats go a long way. Everything from cold cooked spaghetti to placing bread in their water sources. From frozen bricks placed in their water sources to cold cooked rice given to them in the heat of the afternoon. Fortunately the internet is a wealth of information when it comes to finding new ideas to assist the animals with this unrelenting heat.

One of the best things I've done is place 3 fans in the barn, as the movement of air is vital to helping keep the farm animals comfortable. Not necessarily cool, but a little more comfortable.

A fan and water opportunity = Sophie's usual spot

Since Maggie The Pig has her own area, she doesn't have a fan but she does have her swimming pool and stays in it quite a bit throughout the day. I refresh her pool water regularly, and also wet down the dirt around it, allowing her to wallow down into it to feel the cool earth below the surface. She also gets the water hose on her each evening, and enjoys standing there while I let the water run over her from front to back, and back to front......over and over. 

Sweet Maggie. Too food-motivated to be allowed outside
her pen. No cap. I mean really, this girl eats everything in site.

Amy, a sweet work friend had brought over this swimming pool just for Maggie. And wow, it’s Maggie’s favorite thing right now. 

As you can imagine, this heat can be brutal and some of the animals fare better than others. The sheep are not a fan of this 100+ degree heat. They struggle due to their thick bodies and outer coat, even though much of their wool has self-shedded. And they do drink alot of water, which helps as do the horses. Whereby the goats act as if there's no heatwave and they have no idea what we speak of. They seem unbothered by very little in life anyway....well except for Buddy and Sophie being around.

As for the mini horses, during the daytime, Dora and Hope both stay in their stalls inside the barn with their own personal fans blowing on them. This is two fold as it helps keep them cool but also keeps the flies off them. 

The Barn Cam caught Dora napping during the day in 
front of the fan. I love being able to see what's 
happening in the barn while I'm away. 

The mini horses are very accustomed to this process of being in the barn during the day and outside at night. They know this routine well and come in the barn (with direct access to their stalls) each morning at their own free will, at which time the fans are turned on high and directly on them. They know a good thing when they see and feel it. This is when they also get breakfast so there's that. 

Fly protectors on ankles, fan nearby. 

Dora enjoys dozing in the sun in front of her fan. 
She's my senior mini who values rest - and a fan.

According to my farrier (our horse feet trimmer) Dora and Hope are spoiled with their ability to have breakfast and dinner in front of their fans, and enjoy the fan-luxury all day long. Yet with Hope's skin sensitivities, it's vital that she have an environment which nurtures and maintains the integrity of her skin and this seems to work well for her. Dora just happens to be a side recipient of this spoiling, I suppose. If you were to ask Dora about this sweet setup, she would tell you she's worth it. I agree, Dora the Diva. Just a girl who knows what she wants, how she wants it and will certainly let you know. I just love these two mini girls and their love for one another.  

This leaves the cats and dogs of The Graves Farm. The barn cats have (for a long time) free access to the laundry room and they all take shelter in there for cooler air sometimes, except for July. He stays outside exclusively. July is feral enough that he does not allow others to pet or touch him, but he does allow our touch. He's a sweet boy and quickly turns his purr-er on when the pets start. All the cats do very well overall in most any weather. And in the evenings and night, they hunt and prowl, doing all their cat-ing around while the world sleeps. They seem unfazed by all the summer hub-bub. 

Now the Frenchies on the other hand, do very poorly with this heat. The stifling heat is abhorrent to them. When they are outside during the heat of the day, you will likely find them laying in the chicken waters like a personal pool of their very own. 

Ah come on Sugar, that's a water that the chickens stand in. Ick.

If you need us, we'll be right here. Say less.

Then surprisingly, the 4 livestock guard dogs know how to handle it all. 

Penny, Whisper and Dutch

They all lay low in the shade during the day, resting and waiting patiently for the evening to arrive once again. If they could talk they would tell you this is no big deal and that it happens every year, wondering why you're so surprised by the heat again. The Great Pyrenees breed is so adaptive. These dogs innate ability to handle the swing of temps from 100 degrees all the way to 10 degrees makes humans look silly for complaining.

Not to worry, I have not forgotten about Sugar and Maybe. We all know they live a luxurious lifestyle just as Buddy and Sophie do - inside at their discretion. These are 2 bonded pairs who all get along, but prefer their own emotional support partner. Buddy and Sophie all but sleep as if they become one dog at night, while Sugar and Maybe want to be near each other, but not necessarily touching. Sugar and Maybe do very well, considering, with this heat. But then again, they are accustomed to it as they willingly go to the barn with me and wait for me to finish my farm chores there. 

This is one of Sugar's very favorite things to do.
Me too, Sug’s 🩷

They also accompany me on my runs (in their cart) and have become heat adjusted due to the fact that they are outside alot just because of their lifestyle in general. 

With all this said, I'd like to add that this heat is something I like. I don't mind sweating, I don't mind getting up early to run or bike, and I don't mind August at all. It also happens to be a birthday month for many of my favorite people like Lauren, Ryan, my sweet sister Sheryl, and my awesome Aunt Sarah (RIP). It's actually a birthday month for many folks, I reckon. Many who enjoy this heat as I do, while many do not. Either way, just know that we are doing our best to keep everyone here comfortable. Fall is coming. Fall always comes.......sooner or later. 

So while all the animals are busy surviving the heat, Brooks is also busy as we now send him to the grocery store for us. Free room and board comes with a price even if you are 2 1/2 years old. 

IYKYK
and this boy knows

All while Olive does what she does best 💤

And as for the rest of us? We are playing, working and living a life we are privileged to have. What I find interesting is that the summer months bring about farm chores and a different type of work in an effort to keep everyone cool, and then winter arrives and the tables are turned and I'm trying to keep everyone warm. Either way, farm chores are one of my favorite things to do in life. There's nowhere I'd rather be than in the barn - besides on a run, maybe. Or on my bike. Or with Brooks or Olive. Or or or or......so many things in life I want to do. 

As August moves along, I wish you good luck with getting your kiddos back to school, or tolerating this heat, or whatever your excitement is on these warm days. 

We are all in this together,

Cyndi

Apparently I'm not the only one who pottys 
outside now-a-days.