It seems every year, I learn new and different things. This year was probably one of the biggest years for change, and we've had a lot of change in our 30 years of life together. Between the loss of David's parents, settling an estate, new lambs, chicken losses and gains, guard dog's surgery and continuing recovery, retirement from the OR into the medical office setting, new guard dog pups to train, Lauren's new-found love of biking (plus a myriad of change for her, certainly), constant care and movement of fencing for farm animals, new roofs on all the dwellings, as well as other plethora of day to day activities. I began my own death cleaning this year, and learned to love less clutter - and less noise around me. I know that this is what we all do in life. Other people's changes are different from mine, but just as impacting and important. We are all bouncing along this wonderful life together, each doing things in our homes to live life as best as we are able. With love and loss.
I've learned the impact of one's parents death(s) is varied and far reaching. The learning from it goes well beyond "what to do after a death of a loved one". It's a lot of rethinking, forming what if's, and maybe even some regrets along the hard road we call the grieving process. While life continues for us, and changes are happening, the end of life for others forms new pathways into ones thinking.
Simple questions arise like, Will I trust my adult child's judgement when the time comes that I need to hear hard things? Will I take other's advise when my decisions are not sound? And maybe most importantly, How will I know when it's time - to make a change or move?
It's so hard to realize a time will come for this type of thing. But it does, even though I can't see that far ahead in life. It's like it happens to others, but those kinds of things won't happen to me. As I age, I no longer believe that, because I know a time will come for "that" kind of change. The changes for 2018 are normal, regular life changes as we all have. I'm hoping in my lifetime - and when it's "time" - God will grant me the grace to know that a season of change is necessary.
My favorite thing about all this is it will be a surprise. So how can I be ready for a surprise? I've never known in my life where I would be in 10 years down the road. So planning for proper care at a late stage of my life seems perplexing and confusing. I didn't even know that in January 2018, what was about to fall in my lap in late 2018. How could I possibly construe and formulate a plan for "later on" not knowing my destiny. Where's the book on all this? And to make it even more difficult and complicated, each person whose of older age is so vastly different. There's no one path, and no "right" path.
So as I cool my jets on thinking about my own plans when an age strikes that requires me to seek assistance, I move forward. I'm ever changing and evolving as a person, as most of us are. I don't want to dig my heels down and define myself as "fill-in-the-blank". I want to be fresh, learning, and smile. I want to learn to listen to my intuition more regularly.......and trust it. I always want to learn to love myself more, because as I do, I learn to love others more.
With this evolution, I find I need to be more and more open to the things around me. Social media, 'current' phone etiquette, trendy and cool things that make living life easier, resetting my expectations on today's lifestyles, and listening to the younger generations. Now that's really how I learn things. Don't get me wrong, I still want to do things my way, the old way, the ways I've always known. But that only gets me so far. Speaking of learning, I've learned I need to be open to ways of doing things that are not necessarily comfortable - or may even seem illogical to me. But that's the way life works, and it's taken me years to see that I can sit back and say things like, Remember when the phone was attached to the wall to talk? Or, Remember when there were only channels 4, 5, 11 and 13 on the TV? Or one of my favorites, which I resist the urge to say (all the time), Remember when people answered the phone when it rang?
So now I find myself "sounding old". And by the way, I feel it when it happens, most of the time. Or I can tell by the look on others people's faces around me. Either way, I'm doing it. I want to learn new things everyday - and I hope I can continue to do that. I want to try and keep up, just a little bit, with this vast world of happenings.
It's a conflicting paradigm, though. One side of me says, "Yes, Keep up, Gurl!", while the other side of me says, "Go put a Closed sign on the gate out front of the property, and become a commune and never leave". Ah yes, I'm conflicted.
I'm picking the option of Keeping Up. I'm like a 2 year old chasing after a mom walking too fast. Wait for me! I'm just trying to keep up with life, keep myself in line, and manage all my sweet farm animals - all at the same time. Luckily, I have a life mate, best friend, kindred soul and husband who is compassionate and amazing. He wants me happy, as much as I want him to be happy. He's a wonderful artist, woodworker, and baker. He's my gateway into the world of growing old. And there's no one else I'd rather travel in time with.
Bring on the changes of 2019. I'll do my best.
Cyndi
Farm Update:
Due to the nature of a recovering dog and guard pups who are still young, heat lamps were placed in the barn to assist them with the cold winter temps.
The lambs are in the midst of weaning from their mama's (and us, from Little Grace). The lambs are now big enough to be secure and eat on their own, and become more and more independent.
Grace is down to 1/2 bottle am and pm. And cries for more constantly. Insert hurts heart to hear her cry.
All electrical heated water buckets are in place for the upcoming 20 degree weather.
Sugar is beginning to learn her name, as is Dixie and Davis.
This rain makes the farm a muddy mess.
The donkey's own updated barn is ready just in time for this cold and wet weather.
Last, all the chickens are healthy and happy - which, of course, makes me one happy chicken lady.
Monday, December 31, 2018
Thursday, December 20, 2018
And now, let there be peace
As Christmas approaches, it's fitting to say there is peace on the farm. It's been a long time coming.
Tranquility and calm has descended upon us. The lambs have all turned the "I'm going to live" corner. Little Grace has been bottle fed for weeks now, and is finally catching up with the others. We are currently weaning her from the bottle, slowly. She's gone from 3 full bottles a day, to 2 a day, and now getting 2 partial bottles a day. We are making our way to no bottles a day. It's going to take about 3 more weeks to get there, but progress abounds. Grace, Clara and LuLu are all healthy, happy lambs. Granted, LuLu does not like this cold weather. All in all, the lambs are growing up. I imagine that Belle and Eve will wean their still-nursing lambs within the next month. They are growing less tolerate of their lambs nursing, and the lambs are eating alfalfa, grain and grazing the pasture. Oh, my heart is happy beyond belief. Each time I drive down towards the house and see them all out grazing, I realize David's dream of a larger flock is coming true. Will there be more? I never thought I'd say it. But, yeah, just maybe there will be more lambs in our future. We survived - and they survived. I can't wait for Jerry, The Sheep Shearer to come this year and see our prizes. Our spoiled sheep have had spoiled lambs. I can see him rolling his eyes as I write this.
And Whisper! You'd be so proud of her. You've all gone down this scary road of will she - or won't she make it through this recovery period, and come out the other side with a successful surgery and healing process. No, I did not take her to the vet this week. Wait a second while I pat myself on the back. Okay, done. We were able to keep her from further escape(s) and harm. Really, I think she's just thrown in the towel, and quit fighting against us. But either way, we are all in a good place, together. And to add to this success, we have created a new area whereby the puppies are now blended with Whisper in a fenced area that allows them their own private access to a portion of the barn, that's exclusively theirs. Did it require David and I to move 13 10X6 pieces of fencing? Why, yes it did. Did it require us to cut another small door in the side of the barn? Check. So now when it rains, or is really cold, the new guard pups-in-training, and Whisper, together get to dictate when they want to come inside the barn. It's also a great way to bond them to Whisper, and get some training with her and what to bark at, staying up most of the night watching and learning to love and respect each other. The 3 of them are all able to eat their meals in a 10 X 10 area together without complete chaos. They eat calmly, and are mindful of each other. It's been a blessing to be able to have them all together - with access to a large, fenced outside area. They will be free to room the pasture in an estimated 3 months. We look forward to Whisper being healed by then, and the puppies ready to take a shot at being free in the pasture, under the guidance of Levi and Whisper, both. This whole process is an evolution. New guard pups, new leg for Whisper, new lambs and new beginnings and traditions on the farm. It takes time and work, but all this time and work invested pays huge dividends. It's like the stock market. It pays well over time, and we are still putting in our time. I can see the rewards coming, and it feels good to let go of some of the chaos, and enjoy the calm that's creeping in.
And since I wouldn't want to let things get too calm, I decided that maybe, just maybe I need an indoor animal. The sheriff had put all animals out of the house on my last crossing. I can't say as I blame him. It's a lot of work to keep the house clean with cats and dogs coming and going, with dirt, grass and hair flying everywhere. After all, it's really dirty outside. Chickens, donkeys, sheep along with rain, mud and dirt does not lend to a clean house.
So what might I want in the house? A really small tiny dog. Yep, that's what I want. An indoor animal. One that stays inside most all the time, with outside potty time, and then right back inside. Maybe can't qualify for this job, as she enjoys the life outside too much. Maybe enjoys her barn time, gravel road time, 355 time, and even her occasional trip down the road to the satellite tower, across the way, to see what's shaking down there. She's even been known to travel across the street to the pasture of cows, and get too close to the edge of their pond. She's all about getting dirty, and it does not bother her in the least.
After some research, I located puppies and dogs for sale around 3-5 lbs. OMGoodness, now that's how a house pet should be. We begin our journey of this online, and ended up at a tiny puppy/dog boutique and found our forever house animal. We adopted a 1 year old MaltiPoo who had gone unpurchased, and who also was looking for a forever home. There we were - together looking for each other. She's just over 5 lbs full grown, a white poodle-looking, curly haired girl with a Maltese curly tail. I'll take her! And we did. She's feisty, but fearful. Brave and afraid. Fan of females, and loves a life of luxury. David built her a little dog bed, with a special pink velour pillow of her own. She wears a sweater, and stands on her back legs like she's in the circus. She doesn't bark, but she does have a odd howl when left at the house, in her confined area when we are away or at work. David named her Sugar. She's sweet, and just like all of our animal population, we love her to bits. Each and everyone of them, brings pure joy.
Our cat community is not taken for granted. They all get along so well, and do a wonderful job of deterring mice, snakes and rats. We still have the occasional possum around, as there's not much that a cat can do to help that. But all our cats do a great job of tolerating, and mostly enjoying each others company. They each have their domain and territory. They are certainly the easiest of the animals to care for. But right up there with easy care, are the chickens. We are holding strong at 16 chickens. 2018 was a year of chicken highs and lows. Our chicken community is much like our cat community - everyone is getting along with no obvious meanies. Having our chickens settled, brings about lots of eggs, chicken-harmony and extermination of all bugs in the surrounding area of the barn, house and garage. And the donkeys have something new for the winter. We had their run-in shed modified. The south side is now covered, so that it's more like a barn for them now. We added rubber flooring in it, and it's now their Donkey Palace. They esp love it when we put their hay inside it. Almost like being indoors, and I must say, they have always been fans of the barn. And we have created a separate barn space of their very own.
So as I often do, I do a census of our population: Chickens: Ginger (RIP Butterscotch), Sunshine, Butter, Pebbles, Pepper, Peaches (RIP Cream), Callie, Goldie, The Twins, Veronica (RIP Penny), Storm (Cloud was a rooster, bye bye to a new home), Whitie, Blackie, CoCo and Frizzle. Donkeys: Mama and Papa. Cats: July, June Bug, Fi (May), Kitty, Sweet Pea, Finn, Smokey and Preston. Dogs: Levi, Whisper, Dixie, Davis, Maybe and Sugar (RIP Bridgette). Sheep: Eve, Grace, Clara, Belle and LuLu. Population: 37
It's interesting, because as a unit, their names don't really sound all that great. But if you knew them individually, most all of them fit their names. Or so I think they do. Cue the circus music. Because that's what it's like around here. The three rings are constantly changing their performers, and some are highlighted more than others. It's been an eventful 2018. One of love and loss. We are still ebbing and flowing around here, but for now, the dust has settled. We are all finding peace, comfort and our place where we belong. Myself included. It's taken me years to get here, as I thought this was only what other people did. All it took to get here was to step out of my box, and realize there's more to life - to my life. I've arrived. and oddly enough, I keep arriving.
Thanks for sharing 2018 with me, and 2019 will bring many things I could have never guessed or dreamt of. That's what happens each year - things I never would have imagined, happen. Like happy accidents. I have titled 2019 The Year of kNOw. Knowing what I'd like to do, where I'd like to go, and the ability to say No. I'm going to focus on knowing what feels right and good, listening to my intuition, and answer when it speaks to me. I've ignored it far too many times in life, but I'm on track now. If it takes turning 55 to find my inner voice, then it's about time to start listening to it. I'll stumble, and I'll fall. But getting back up feels so good.
Peace to you,
Cyndi
Tranquility and calm has descended upon us. The lambs have all turned the "I'm going to live" corner. Little Grace has been bottle fed for weeks now, and is finally catching up with the others. We are currently weaning her from the bottle, slowly. She's gone from 3 full bottles a day, to 2 a day, and now getting 2 partial bottles a day. We are making our way to no bottles a day. It's going to take about 3 more weeks to get there, but progress abounds. Grace, Clara and LuLu are all healthy, happy lambs. Granted, LuLu does not like this cold weather. All in all, the lambs are growing up. I imagine that Belle and Eve will wean their still-nursing lambs within the next month. They are growing less tolerate of their lambs nursing, and the lambs are eating alfalfa, grain and grazing the pasture. Oh, my heart is happy beyond belief. Each time I drive down towards the house and see them all out grazing, I realize David's dream of a larger flock is coming true. Will there be more? I never thought I'd say it. But, yeah, just maybe there will be more lambs in our future. We survived - and they survived. I can't wait for Jerry, The Sheep Shearer to come this year and see our prizes. Our spoiled sheep have had spoiled lambs. I can see him rolling his eyes as I write this.
And Whisper! You'd be so proud of her. You've all gone down this scary road of will she - or won't she make it through this recovery period, and come out the other side with a successful surgery and healing process. No, I did not take her to the vet this week. Wait a second while I pat myself on the back. Okay, done. We were able to keep her from further escape(s) and harm. Really, I think she's just thrown in the towel, and quit fighting against us. But either way, we are all in a good place, together. And to add to this success, we have created a new area whereby the puppies are now blended with Whisper in a fenced area that allows them their own private access to a portion of the barn, that's exclusively theirs. Did it require David and I to move 13 10X6 pieces of fencing? Why, yes it did. Did it require us to cut another small door in the side of the barn? Check. So now when it rains, or is really cold, the new guard pups-in-training, and Whisper, together get to dictate when they want to come inside the barn. It's also a great way to bond them to Whisper, and get some training with her and what to bark at, staying up most of the night watching and learning to love and respect each other. The 3 of them are all able to eat their meals in a 10 X 10 area together without complete chaos. They eat calmly, and are mindful of each other. It's been a blessing to be able to have them all together - with access to a large, fenced outside area. They will be free to room the pasture in an estimated 3 months. We look forward to Whisper being healed by then, and the puppies ready to take a shot at being free in the pasture, under the guidance of Levi and Whisper, both. This whole process is an evolution. New guard pups, new leg for Whisper, new lambs and new beginnings and traditions on the farm. It takes time and work, but all this time and work invested pays huge dividends. It's like the stock market. It pays well over time, and we are still putting in our time. I can see the rewards coming, and it feels good to let go of some of the chaos, and enjoy the calm that's creeping in.
And since I wouldn't want to let things get too calm, I decided that maybe, just maybe I need an indoor animal. The sheriff had put all animals out of the house on my last crossing. I can't say as I blame him. It's a lot of work to keep the house clean with cats and dogs coming and going, with dirt, grass and hair flying everywhere. After all, it's really dirty outside. Chickens, donkeys, sheep along with rain, mud and dirt does not lend to a clean house.
So what might I want in the house? A really small tiny dog. Yep, that's what I want. An indoor animal. One that stays inside most all the time, with outside potty time, and then right back inside. Maybe can't qualify for this job, as she enjoys the life outside too much. Maybe enjoys her barn time, gravel road time, 355 time, and even her occasional trip down the road to the satellite tower, across the way, to see what's shaking down there. She's even been known to travel across the street to the pasture of cows, and get too close to the edge of their pond. She's all about getting dirty, and it does not bother her in the least.
After some research, I located puppies and dogs for sale around 3-5 lbs. OMGoodness, now that's how a house pet should be. We begin our journey of this online, and ended up at a tiny puppy/dog boutique and found our forever house animal. We adopted a 1 year old MaltiPoo who had gone unpurchased, and who also was looking for a forever home. There we were - together looking for each other. She's just over 5 lbs full grown, a white poodle-looking, curly haired girl with a Maltese curly tail. I'll take her! And we did. She's feisty, but fearful. Brave and afraid. Fan of females, and loves a life of luxury. David built her a little dog bed, with a special pink velour pillow of her own. She wears a sweater, and stands on her back legs like she's in the circus. She doesn't bark, but she does have a odd howl when left at the house, in her confined area when we are away or at work. David named her Sugar. She's sweet, and just like all of our animal population, we love her to bits. Each and everyone of them, brings pure joy.
Our cat community is not taken for granted. They all get along so well, and do a wonderful job of deterring mice, snakes and rats. We still have the occasional possum around, as there's not much that a cat can do to help that. But all our cats do a great job of tolerating, and mostly enjoying each others company. They each have their domain and territory. They are certainly the easiest of the animals to care for. But right up there with easy care, are the chickens. We are holding strong at 16 chickens. 2018 was a year of chicken highs and lows. Our chicken community is much like our cat community - everyone is getting along with no obvious meanies. Having our chickens settled, brings about lots of eggs, chicken-harmony and extermination of all bugs in the surrounding area of the barn, house and garage. And the donkeys have something new for the winter. We had their run-in shed modified. The south side is now covered, so that it's more like a barn for them now. We added rubber flooring in it, and it's now their Donkey Palace. They esp love it when we put their hay inside it. Almost like being indoors, and I must say, they have always been fans of the barn. And we have created a separate barn space of their very own.
So as I often do, I do a census of our population: Chickens: Ginger (RIP Butterscotch), Sunshine, Butter, Pebbles, Pepper, Peaches (RIP Cream), Callie, Goldie, The Twins, Veronica (RIP Penny), Storm (Cloud was a rooster, bye bye to a new home), Whitie, Blackie, CoCo and Frizzle. Donkeys: Mama and Papa. Cats: July, June Bug, Fi (May), Kitty, Sweet Pea, Finn, Smokey and Preston. Dogs: Levi, Whisper, Dixie, Davis, Maybe and Sugar (RIP Bridgette). Sheep: Eve, Grace, Clara, Belle and LuLu. Population: 37
It's interesting, because as a unit, their names don't really sound all that great. But if you knew them individually, most all of them fit their names. Or so I think they do. Cue the circus music. Because that's what it's like around here. The three rings are constantly changing their performers, and some are highlighted more than others. It's been an eventful 2018. One of love and loss. We are still ebbing and flowing around here, but for now, the dust has settled. We are all finding peace, comfort and our place where we belong. Myself included. It's taken me years to get here, as I thought this was only what other people did. All it took to get here was to step out of my box, and realize there's more to life - to my life. I've arrived. and oddly enough, I keep arriving.
Thanks for sharing 2018 with me, and 2019 will bring many things I could have never guessed or dreamt of. That's what happens each year - things I never would have imagined, happen. Like happy accidents. I have titled 2019 The Year of kNOw. Knowing what I'd like to do, where I'd like to go, and the ability to say No. I'm going to focus on knowing what feels right and good, listening to my intuition, and answer when it speaks to me. I've ignored it far too many times in life, but I'm on track now. If it takes turning 55 to find my inner voice, then it's about time to start listening to it. I'll stumble, and I'll fall. But getting back up feels so good.
Peace to you,
Cyndi
Sunday, December 9, 2018
Back to the Vet
I'm beginning to think the veterinarian's office should just make Whisper and I a "standing" weekly visit. After a week of watching Whisper struggle with her leg after the storm incident last Friday night, I decided another visit is necessary. For her, or for me? Yes.
Whisper is getting to be quite the expert at car riding. That's a bit exaggerated, but still, she's adjusting and no longer pants and drools from anxiety, my pasture dog. This time, I also put my little King Charles spaniel, Maybe, in the car with us for some extra company and comfort. Those two dogs despised each other for at least the first year. Whisper did not allow Maybe to come into the pasture, and after one altercation, Maybe had no desire to wander out there.....without us with her. I think Whisper thought she looked too much like a skunk. Look how far we've come! Maybe is in the car as Whisper's 'emotional companion'. Who knew that day would ever happen. So the three of us travel to the vet office, to again confess my inability to control and contain my guard dog so her leg can heal. 4 months is a long time to keep a guard dog penned up. That's just me whining.
Side note: I had a "first" happen, as when I let Whisper out of the car on her leash, we walked through the grass and she potty'd while she was leashed. What? She's a real dog now. And she's beginning to settle into a routine of moving about the property - and in life - (only) on a leash. Her wanderlust days are temporary suspended, and she's settling into the groove of a new routine. To translate: Our routine for her, to get this leg healed.
Back to the vet visit. So Maybe waits in the car while I head inside with Whisper. We are the last patient of the day. Dr Murphy watches Whisper walk in, and is very curious why we are there again. I know she's wondering what the "story" is this time. "Well", I start out with, "you know the storm on Friday night?". That's all I had to say. Dr Murphy knows what storms can do to animals, and Whisper gets highly nervous and anxious when it thunders/lightening. The first thing she says is we'll need to get some medicine to help with that, so she won't hurt herself when the next storm comes. Perfect! Then, she begins to examine Whisper, who I'm convinced has completely messed up her leg (again). Dr Murphy is moving it back and forth, evaluating it completely. Touching her leg, pressing against the area with the plate and screws, all while Whisper just lays there like nothing is going on. Dr Murphy looks up at me and says, "Nope, she's just fine!". Everything looks good (again). And once again, God has shown mercy on Whisper - and me. With 2 escapes under this dog's belt, and to be "fine" both times is something I cannot wrap my brain around. God is Good. We are close to 1 month post op - and she's fine. 3 months to go. 3 more long months of confinement so her leg can heal. Along the way, we are to do physical training exercises with her. The journey continues. Don't get too comfortable, because just when I think everything is okay, Whisper has something up her sleeve. She's a smart cookie. More like obsessed with getting herself freed. It's a battle of wills around here.
I'm taking that good news and moving forward. Whisper is thriving and healing. And on top of that, all three lambs are growing up and thriving as well. Clara and Grace are coming up on 2 months old, and Little LuLu is 2 weeks behind them, although taller. LuLu is a tall lamb, as is her mama. And her little Baa is the sweetest. Clara and Grace enjoy Baa-ing, esp when they think there might be grain involved. I'm happy to say that we had these three lambs, and they are all three doing wonderful. For our first lambing event, it's been an absolute blessing. The thought that they will be weaning from their mama(s) is hard to imagine. Those lambs love their mamas.
The cold has set in, and the heated water buckets are beginning to be placed in their appropriate spots. The barn doors and windows are remaining shut more and more, to help keep the cold out. This is the hardest time of year for me. My heart hurts to think any of them might be cold. Even though they have fur coats on, and live outside as farm animals do, I still struggle a bit with it. I've gotten better about it. This year, due to the lambs, and Whisper's healing process, we did install 4 heating lamps in the barn. (The chickens love them). But overall, I think we have everybody settled and the things needed for everybody to brave the winter. The tack room is full of coastal and alfalfa hay, as there's just not a lot for the sheep or donkeys to eat in the pasture during the winter. There's some, but we do supplement with hay in the winter. Then, when spring arrives, the grass and forbs are abundant for them all, and they eat non stop. I don't think I ever expected to have lambs at the winter season. I don't really know when I expected to have them, but winter can be cruel to these little lambs. Lulu esp does not like that bitter north wind and low temps. She stays curled up on the dog bed, and Baa's for Belle to come back in the barn. Belle, of course, is out grazing as she's a good eater. I still can't believe all my lambs sleep on dog beds, but they do. Every night. I think that probably speaks volumes about the way we raise and keep our animals. I imagine it's not the norm, but then I figure Why Not? Why not love them how I desire to love them? I'm fortunate to have a husband who understands the way I show my love. My love language, for my farm animals, is lots of hugs (if they allow me to do so, and even if they don't allow me to do so), an abundance of nurturing, and care with their living conditions, oh, and treats. Yes, some might say far too many treats. The barn is certainly my place of choice to be. I'll make up just about any excuse to go out there, be out there, or stay out there for long periods of time. Winter is harder in regards to time in the barn, but I love it just the same. My cold tolerance is low. I will say, sometimes the animals might not want me to love them like I do, as their natural instincts don't lean towards hugs and petting (Ex: chickens, sheep), but as David has heard me say, far too many times to any one of them, "Let me love you". They tolerate me, as best as they can.
As 2019 approaches, I am excited about what a new year brings. It's always a good time to renew commitments to projects, look ahead for new adventures, and rethink what life is all about. The age old questions: is what I'm doing in life enough? do I want to be doing something else? am I a settler? And my answer always seems to boil down to one thing. Happiness. Because does life have to be about doing enough? Can it just be about enjoyment and contentment? There's a balance here somewhere, and ironically it seems the older I get, the closer I get to my own nirvana. Age + experience = wisdom. My own version of it, anyway.
As I watched the tribute to George H.W. Bush, I was touched by his list of advice for young people. I realized it wasn't a list he made for others, but what he lived by himself, and was merely passing it on. Have you seen it? It's simply amazing. Simple, yet amazingly poignant:
Whisper is getting to be quite the expert at car riding. That's a bit exaggerated, but still, she's adjusting and no longer pants and drools from anxiety, my pasture dog. This time, I also put my little King Charles spaniel, Maybe, in the car with us for some extra company and comfort. Those two dogs despised each other for at least the first year. Whisper did not allow Maybe to come into the pasture, and after one altercation, Maybe had no desire to wander out there.....without us with her. I think Whisper thought she looked too much like a skunk. Look how far we've come! Maybe is in the car as Whisper's 'emotional companion'. Who knew that day would ever happen. So the three of us travel to the vet office, to again confess my inability to control and contain my guard dog so her leg can heal. 4 months is a long time to keep a guard dog penned up. That's just me whining.
Side note: I had a "first" happen, as when I let Whisper out of the car on her leash, we walked through the grass and she potty'd while she was leashed. What? She's a real dog now. And she's beginning to settle into a routine of moving about the property - and in life - (only) on a leash. Her wanderlust days are temporary suspended, and she's settling into the groove of a new routine. To translate: Our routine for her, to get this leg healed.
Back to the vet visit. So Maybe waits in the car while I head inside with Whisper. We are the last patient of the day. Dr Murphy watches Whisper walk in, and is very curious why we are there again. I know she's wondering what the "story" is this time. "Well", I start out with, "you know the storm on Friday night?". That's all I had to say. Dr Murphy knows what storms can do to animals, and Whisper gets highly nervous and anxious when it thunders/lightening. The first thing she says is we'll need to get some medicine to help with that, so she won't hurt herself when the next storm comes. Perfect! Then, she begins to examine Whisper, who I'm convinced has completely messed up her leg (again). Dr Murphy is moving it back and forth, evaluating it completely. Touching her leg, pressing against the area with the plate and screws, all while Whisper just lays there like nothing is going on. Dr Murphy looks up at me and says, "Nope, she's just fine!". Everything looks good (again). And once again, God has shown mercy on Whisper - and me. With 2 escapes under this dog's belt, and to be "fine" both times is something I cannot wrap my brain around. God is Good. We are close to 1 month post op - and she's fine. 3 months to go. 3 more long months of confinement so her leg can heal. Along the way, we are to do physical training exercises with her. The journey continues. Don't get too comfortable, because just when I think everything is okay, Whisper has something up her sleeve. She's a smart cookie. More like obsessed with getting herself freed. It's a battle of wills around here.
I'm taking that good news and moving forward. Whisper is thriving and healing. And on top of that, all three lambs are growing up and thriving as well. Clara and Grace are coming up on 2 months old, and Little LuLu is 2 weeks behind them, although taller. LuLu is a tall lamb, as is her mama. And her little Baa is the sweetest. Clara and Grace enjoy Baa-ing, esp when they think there might be grain involved. I'm happy to say that we had these three lambs, and they are all three doing wonderful. For our first lambing event, it's been an absolute blessing. The thought that they will be weaning from their mama(s) is hard to imagine. Those lambs love their mamas.
The cold has set in, and the heated water buckets are beginning to be placed in their appropriate spots. The barn doors and windows are remaining shut more and more, to help keep the cold out. This is the hardest time of year for me. My heart hurts to think any of them might be cold. Even though they have fur coats on, and live outside as farm animals do, I still struggle a bit with it. I've gotten better about it. This year, due to the lambs, and Whisper's healing process, we did install 4 heating lamps in the barn. (The chickens love them). But overall, I think we have everybody settled and the things needed for everybody to brave the winter. The tack room is full of coastal and alfalfa hay, as there's just not a lot for the sheep or donkeys to eat in the pasture during the winter. There's some, but we do supplement with hay in the winter. Then, when spring arrives, the grass and forbs are abundant for them all, and they eat non stop. I don't think I ever expected to have lambs at the winter season. I don't really know when I expected to have them, but winter can be cruel to these little lambs. Lulu esp does not like that bitter north wind and low temps. She stays curled up on the dog bed, and Baa's for Belle to come back in the barn. Belle, of course, is out grazing as she's a good eater. I still can't believe all my lambs sleep on dog beds, but they do. Every night. I think that probably speaks volumes about the way we raise and keep our animals. I imagine it's not the norm, but then I figure Why Not? Why not love them how I desire to love them? I'm fortunate to have a husband who understands the way I show my love. My love language, for my farm animals, is lots of hugs (if they allow me to do so, and even if they don't allow me to do so), an abundance of nurturing, and care with their living conditions, oh, and treats. Yes, some might say far too many treats. The barn is certainly my place of choice to be. I'll make up just about any excuse to go out there, be out there, or stay out there for long periods of time. Winter is harder in regards to time in the barn, but I love it just the same. My cold tolerance is low. I will say, sometimes the animals might not want me to love them like I do, as their natural instincts don't lean towards hugs and petting (Ex: chickens, sheep), but as David has heard me say, far too many times to any one of them, "Let me love you". They tolerate me, as best as they can.
As 2019 approaches, I am excited about what a new year brings. It's always a good time to renew commitments to projects, look ahead for new adventures, and rethink what life is all about. The age old questions: is what I'm doing in life enough? do I want to be doing something else? am I a settler? And my answer always seems to boil down to one thing. Happiness. Because does life have to be about doing enough? Can it just be about enjoyment and contentment? There's a balance here somewhere, and ironically it seems the older I get, the closer I get to my own nirvana. Age + experience = wisdom. My own version of it, anyway.
As I watched the tribute to George H.W. Bush, I was touched by his list of advice for young people. I realized it wasn't a list he made for others, but what he lived by himself, and was merely passing it on. Have you seen it? It's simply amazing. Simple, yet amazingly poignant:
Don’t get down when your life takes a bad turn. Out of adversity comes challenge and often success.
Don’t blame others for your setbacks.
When things go well, always give credit to others.
Don’t talk all the time. Listen to your friends and mentors and learn from them.
Don’t brag about yourself. Let others point out your virtues, your strong points.
Give someone else a hand. When a friend is hurting show that friend you care.
Nobody likes an overbearing big shot.
As you succeed, be kind to people. Thank those who help you along the way.
Don’t be afraid to shed a tear when your heart is broken because a friend is hurting.
Say your prayers!
I thank him for these reminders. I need them. Cyndi
Monday, December 3, 2018
Good News
It's been over 2 weeks since Whisper's surgery. It's also been a couple of weeks now that we have been bottle feeding little lamb, Grace. "We" being the key term. David and/or I bottle feed her in the morning and evening, and our knight-in-shining-armor, Paul dutifully comes by every day at lunch, to make sure Grace gets her milk. He heats the water, mixes the formula and puts it into the bottle and faithfully delivers that bottle to Little Grace in the barn or pasture. She is the oldest of the lambs born recently, yet the smallest, although she is likely to catch up in size, with time. She got behind the curve when her mama, Eve decided not to let her nurse within a week of being born.
What is unique about Grace is her dedication to Eve, although she's not being nursed by her. Grace has to watch her twin (Clara) nurse from Eve, and when Grace attempts to do the same, Eve disallows it by either pushing her away, or merely walking off - over and over. Grace has no choice but to give up. This phenomenon of rejection is fascinating. Graces' attachment to Eve is strong, despite not being nursed by her. It took time to orient Grace to a bottle of milk vs her mama. Hunger took over - and Grace became so hungry, the bottle was readily accepted, with time and continual trying. Now, she wants a bottle all day every day. She cries and cries for it. Luckily, she is eating alfalfa and some grain, but even the fight for that is hard because she's the smallest. Sheep can be cruel, as they are greedy eaters. They enjoy eating so much, that there's a vaccine for sheep called CDT. It's for the treatment of enterotoxemia: the overeating disease. It's a combination vaccine for clostridial disease and tetanus, which is typically given by the age of 10 weeks. Basically, it's so they won't kill themselves by overeating. I don't know the details of "how" it all works, but know that we vaccinate our sheep yearly for it, and plan on vaccinating our lambs in a few weeks. If we choose to give Grace a bottle every time she cried and asked for it, we could essentially cause her death. So many times a day now, she's asking for milk, and since she's at an appropriate size and on a feeding schedule, we don't typically deviate from that. But yet, she cries her sweet cry. Hurts my heart, but we have to do what's in her best interest. Grace is thriving wonderfully, and follows me around the pasture asking for a bottle. I love having another lamb imprinted to me. Belle is such a kind soul, and I imagine once we wean Grace off of Eve, she will begin to be more independent.
As Grace grows, so do the other lambs. They are all so sweet, cute and playful. The three little girl lambs play and chase each other. They jump and run, chasing each other like children do. I can certainly see how people just have more and more lambs. I don't know if I'm going to be okay saying these will be my only lambs. Yeah, I know I've already said that. I enjoy them so much, that I may have to have more. Sam The Ram, I continue to thank you for these gifts of sweet babies.
As time goes on, Eve, Grace and Clara remain a tight unit - as does Belle and LuLu. The 5 are a true flock. They roam together and all get along very well. It's magical watching them in the pasture, as they are such kind and innocent farm animals. They are not mischievous like (cute!) goats, or messy like (cute!) pigs, and I mean those things in the nicest way. But sheep are docile and quaint. They are unable to protect themselves from predators, and rely on others for their safety. Their Baa's are soft and delicate. I never knew sheep were so gentle. I am fortunate to witness it every day.
** Side Note: I must interject that the donkeys are empirically and surprising gentle and kind, too. And when I type that, it leads me to say: so are the chickens, the dogs, the barn cats........Our Farm Community is kind.
Sometimes when life gives you this equilibrium, it feels so good to live it, and be in that moment of really feeling it. What the animals give me, makes me want to give back even more. I know the animals can feel the love, as I can certainly feel theirs. This weekend, we had the opportunity to share some of the animals with family and friends. My sister and her fabulous family came by, and friends as well. My sister's grandchildren are all so wonderfully loving and sweet. I would love to have them over every weekend! We love having people drop by. David and I are the first to say that Hosting is a talent, and we are still learning and figuring out the secret(s) to it. Each of us always wishes the other was Fabulous Host/Hostess Extraordinaire. We bop along when it comes to entertaining, and really enjoy the experience of family and friends. It's such a odd feeling to say we feel so insecure at hosting, because aren't we old enough to be good at it yet? Other people make it look so easy. Despite our insecurities, we are always happy when people come over.
Speaking of happy, I was so happy to meet Kaitlyn, her husband and sweet young son. Her son was so brave. He was all-in! Donkeys, no problem. No fear. He was engaged, and embraced each moment. My favorite think about him? His patience, that's what I really noticed. What a attribute to have in life. Patience - its's key to everything we do. And he has that, at such a young age. He was taking it all in, in stride.
I love watching all the children, and the choices they make. It's almost as if I can see the neurons firing in their brain, as the young ones process what's happening around them. There's so much to learn. Where do the chickens live? What do they eat? You mean it's okay to hold one? The donkeys are so big. Why does the barn smell like this? And it just doesn't stop. I derive such affectionate amusement from it all. Their words, their faces, and their smiles. Precious. Thanks, Kaitlyn for bringing your family by the farm.
Whisper, Whisper, Whisper. I must tell you that we got the most fabulous news this past week. The surgeon took X-rays, and found that Whisper's leg looked very good. Her plate and screws are still in proper alignment on her leg, and she's on track in regards to her recovery. She got her stitches out, and her incision looks great and has healed without a glitch. Considering her escape on Day 1, this is unbelievable. What I have found in life is this: Good news! Yay, and oh-so-wonderful! We moved past fill-in-the-blank, now onto the next good and positive step. Right? Good news means more good news, or at least that's how I was feeling and exactly how I felt. How could anything go wrong now? Whisper's going to be just fine! 'The worst thing that could happen' is behind us now. Insert record scratch. 2 days after receiving this good news, things took a turn.
It all started (this past) Friday night. Whisper was in her secured fenced area, all was well. As a review, she's not allowed to be off leash (or free to roam) for 4 months during this recovery. Keeping her contained has been one of the most difficult things we've encountered on the farm. Her instinct to guard, and be in the pasture is greater than any pain she feels. So what happened was, David and I get everyone in the barn settled, as we do each night. Then, we do something unusual, we head back out for my work Holiday Party. Yep, we are going out on a Friday night. Who are we? I digress. What did not pass the forefront of my mind was that a storm was coming. Whisper hates storms. She's "that dog" that freaks out with thunder and lightening. Not rain, but the loud bangs and lightening. That's all good and fine, if she can go to her usual hiding spot, but in her pen, she's stuck. I'll make this quick and painless: Storm comes, Whisper is mortified, flustered, and so agitated and stressed by it that she pushed with her body (and I mean pushes) her pen a couple of feet over, that allows her access to sneak under an area about the size of 1 foot by 1 foot. And that she did.
I still don't know how she moved that pen. Desperation? Probably. Fight of flight response? Yeah, that too. Whisper not only moved a heavy a$$ welded pen, but she moved a portion of the pen over an area that had a drop down, so she could crawl underneath and escape. While this was going on, I was completely oblivious, and had not even considered this could even happen in my wildest dreams.
When the party's over, we drive home, and while coming down the gravel drive we notice there are two guard dogs in the pasture. Not just Levi. Who is that other dog, I thought?! I thought I was dreaming, or maybe a neighbor dog decided to drop by? And then, it hit me: How did Whisper get out!? Did I leave the gate unlocked? No, Whisper used her super powers to move something I can hardly move. And she's a dog. With a hurt leg.
I quickly run out to the pasture and get her back in the barn on a leash. But it's too late. I can already see her leg seems different. I knew then, that this event tonight might have been that final hurrah for her leg. If I ever thought it was Escape # 1 to mess her leg up, how wrong I was. It was actually Escape #2 that might have done the most damage. There was not supposed to be a Escape #2. It never crossed my mind whatsoever. Remember, I had the Good News, that everything was fine. The vet said so. I had her in luxury accommodations, with everything she needed. Not everything, obviously.
Back to square one. I'm mad at myself for underestimating her desire, her passion and her need to escape. This is not a regular dog. There's no compliance, no cooperation. It's like she fakes it, till she makes it out. As if Whisper says, "I'll be right here". Not.
I can't be sure all is not well with her leg. It's a feeling I have. I watch her try to walk on it, and it's different now. Time will be the teller of it all. Only time will tell me the answer this time. If I asked to take her back up to the Vet for X-rays again, they will send doggie CPS out for me. Lady, why can't you keep your dog contained during a 4 month recovery period? But sir, you don't understand. I don't even understand how she's doing these things. I'm telling you - super powers. If Whisper was a super hero, she'd be Captain Houdini.
Back to my point from above. The good news I received was short lived, but I was convinced that once I got that good news, it would be smooth sailing, as I had everything under control and would make it a few more months now, protecting her from herself. No, that was all a delusion. Reality gave me a wake up call. Wish I hadn't answered that call.
I guess if your a dog, it's not considered self-sabotage. In a human, yes. Dog, no. Whisper knows not that she needs to be kenneled for her protection and recovery. She is back in her appointed safe place, forcibly and reluctantly. Just waiting for that right moment again to escape. Until the next storm, upon which I may have to put her beside my bed. I have a feeling she'll be under the bed. And that's okay. At least in the house she only drools and pants with anxiety.
And things were looking so good. This time, I'll have to "wait it out" to figure out what's next. Poo. Just when the good news came. It's crushing to see her so willing to hurt herself further, that it's hard to wrap my mind around this dilemma. And if she gets even a remote chance, I know she'll take it.
I'm going to keep at this,
Cyndi
What is unique about Grace is her dedication to Eve, although she's not being nursed by her. Grace has to watch her twin (Clara) nurse from Eve, and when Grace attempts to do the same, Eve disallows it by either pushing her away, or merely walking off - over and over. Grace has no choice but to give up. This phenomenon of rejection is fascinating. Graces' attachment to Eve is strong, despite not being nursed by her. It took time to orient Grace to a bottle of milk vs her mama. Hunger took over - and Grace became so hungry, the bottle was readily accepted, with time and continual trying. Now, she wants a bottle all day every day. She cries and cries for it. Luckily, she is eating alfalfa and some grain, but even the fight for that is hard because she's the smallest. Sheep can be cruel, as they are greedy eaters. They enjoy eating so much, that there's a vaccine for sheep called CDT. It's for the treatment of enterotoxemia: the overeating disease. It's a combination vaccine for clostridial disease and tetanus, which is typically given by the age of 10 weeks. Basically, it's so they won't kill themselves by overeating. I don't know the details of "how" it all works, but know that we vaccinate our sheep yearly for it, and plan on vaccinating our lambs in a few weeks. If we choose to give Grace a bottle every time she cried and asked for it, we could essentially cause her death. So many times a day now, she's asking for milk, and since she's at an appropriate size and on a feeding schedule, we don't typically deviate from that. But yet, she cries her sweet cry. Hurts my heart, but we have to do what's in her best interest. Grace is thriving wonderfully, and follows me around the pasture asking for a bottle. I love having another lamb imprinted to me. Belle is such a kind soul, and I imagine once we wean Grace off of Eve, she will begin to be more independent.
As Grace grows, so do the other lambs. They are all so sweet, cute and playful. The three little girl lambs play and chase each other. They jump and run, chasing each other like children do. I can certainly see how people just have more and more lambs. I don't know if I'm going to be okay saying these will be my only lambs. Yeah, I know I've already said that. I enjoy them so much, that I may have to have more. Sam The Ram, I continue to thank you for these gifts of sweet babies.
As time goes on, Eve, Grace and Clara remain a tight unit - as does Belle and LuLu. The 5 are a true flock. They roam together and all get along very well. It's magical watching them in the pasture, as they are such kind and innocent farm animals. They are not mischievous like (cute!) goats, or messy like (cute!) pigs, and I mean those things in the nicest way. But sheep are docile and quaint. They are unable to protect themselves from predators, and rely on others for their safety. Their Baa's are soft and delicate. I never knew sheep were so gentle. I am fortunate to witness it every day.
** Side Note: I must interject that the donkeys are empirically and surprising gentle and kind, too. And when I type that, it leads me to say: so are the chickens, the dogs, the barn cats........Our Farm Community is kind.
Sometimes when life gives you this equilibrium, it feels so good to live it, and be in that moment of really feeling it. What the animals give me, makes me want to give back even more. I know the animals can feel the love, as I can certainly feel theirs. This weekend, we had the opportunity to share some of the animals with family and friends. My sister and her fabulous family came by, and friends as well. My sister's grandchildren are all so wonderfully loving and sweet. I would love to have them over every weekend! We love having people drop by. David and I are the first to say that Hosting is a talent, and we are still learning and figuring out the secret(s) to it. Each of us always wishes the other was Fabulous Host/Hostess Extraordinaire. We bop along when it comes to entertaining, and really enjoy the experience of family and friends. It's such a odd feeling to say we feel so insecure at hosting, because aren't we old enough to be good at it yet? Other people make it look so easy. Despite our insecurities, we are always happy when people come over.
Speaking of happy, I was so happy to meet Kaitlyn, her husband and sweet young son. Her son was so brave. He was all-in! Donkeys, no problem. No fear. He was engaged, and embraced each moment. My favorite think about him? His patience, that's what I really noticed. What a attribute to have in life. Patience - its's key to everything we do. And he has that, at such a young age. He was taking it all in, in stride.
I love watching all the children, and the choices they make. It's almost as if I can see the neurons firing in their brain, as the young ones process what's happening around them. There's so much to learn. Where do the chickens live? What do they eat? You mean it's okay to hold one? The donkeys are so big. Why does the barn smell like this? And it just doesn't stop. I derive such affectionate amusement from it all. Their words, their faces, and their smiles. Precious. Thanks, Kaitlyn for bringing your family by the farm.
Whisper, Whisper, Whisper. I must tell you that we got the most fabulous news this past week. The surgeon took X-rays, and found that Whisper's leg looked very good. Her plate and screws are still in proper alignment on her leg, and she's on track in regards to her recovery. She got her stitches out, and her incision looks great and has healed without a glitch. Considering her escape on Day 1, this is unbelievable. What I have found in life is this: Good news! Yay, and oh-so-wonderful! We moved past fill-in-the-blank, now onto the next good and positive step. Right? Good news means more good news, or at least that's how I was feeling and exactly how I felt. How could anything go wrong now? Whisper's going to be just fine! 'The worst thing that could happen' is behind us now. Insert record scratch. 2 days after receiving this good news, things took a turn.
It all started (this past) Friday night. Whisper was in her secured fenced area, all was well. As a review, she's not allowed to be off leash (or free to roam) for 4 months during this recovery. Keeping her contained has been one of the most difficult things we've encountered on the farm. Her instinct to guard, and be in the pasture is greater than any pain she feels. So what happened was, David and I get everyone in the barn settled, as we do each night. Then, we do something unusual, we head back out for my work Holiday Party. Yep, we are going out on a Friday night. Who are we? I digress. What did not pass the forefront of my mind was that a storm was coming. Whisper hates storms. She's "that dog" that freaks out with thunder and lightening. Not rain, but the loud bangs and lightening. That's all good and fine, if she can go to her usual hiding spot, but in her pen, she's stuck. I'll make this quick and painless: Storm comes, Whisper is mortified, flustered, and so agitated and stressed by it that she pushed with her body (and I mean pushes) her pen a couple of feet over, that allows her access to sneak under an area about the size of 1 foot by 1 foot. And that she did.
I still don't know how she moved that pen. Desperation? Probably. Fight of flight response? Yeah, that too. Whisper not only moved a heavy a$$ welded pen, but she moved a portion of the pen over an area that had a drop down, so she could crawl underneath and escape. While this was going on, I was completely oblivious, and had not even considered this could even happen in my wildest dreams.
When the party's over, we drive home, and while coming down the gravel drive we notice there are two guard dogs in the pasture. Not just Levi. Who is that other dog, I thought?! I thought I was dreaming, or maybe a neighbor dog decided to drop by? And then, it hit me: How did Whisper get out!? Did I leave the gate unlocked? No, Whisper used her super powers to move something I can hardly move. And she's a dog. With a hurt leg.
I quickly run out to the pasture and get her back in the barn on a leash. But it's too late. I can already see her leg seems different. I knew then, that this event tonight might have been that final hurrah for her leg. If I ever thought it was Escape # 1 to mess her leg up, how wrong I was. It was actually Escape #2 that might have done the most damage. There was not supposed to be a Escape #2. It never crossed my mind whatsoever. Remember, I had the Good News, that everything was fine. The vet said so. I had her in luxury accommodations, with everything she needed. Not everything, obviously.
Back to square one. I'm mad at myself for underestimating her desire, her passion and her need to escape. This is not a regular dog. There's no compliance, no cooperation. It's like she fakes it, till she makes it out. As if Whisper says, "I'll be right here". Not.
I can't be sure all is not well with her leg. It's a feeling I have. I watch her try to walk on it, and it's different now. Time will be the teller of it all. Only time will tell me the answer this time. If I asked to take her back up to the Vet for X-rays again, they will send doggie CPS out for me. Lady, why can't you keep your dog contained during a 4 month recovery period? But sir, you don't understand. I don't even understand how she's doing these things. I'm telling you - super powers. If Whisper was a super hero, she'd be Captain Houdini.
Back to my point from above. The good news I received was short lived, but I was convinced that once I got that good news, it would be smooth sailing, as I had everything under control and would make it a few more months now, protecting her from herself. No, that was all a delusion. Reality gave me a wake up call. Wish I hadn't answered that call.
I guess if your a dog, it's not considered self-sabotage. In a human, yes. Dog, no. Whisper knows not that she needs to be kenneled for her protection and recovery. She is back in her appointed safe place, forcibly and reluctantly. Just waiting for that right moment again to escape. Until the next storm, upon which I may have to put her beside my bed. I have a feeling she'll be under the bed. And that's okay. At least in the house she only drools and pants with anxiety.
And things were looking so good. This time, I'll have to "wait it out" to figure out what's next. Poo. Just when the good news came. It's crushing to see her so willing to hurt herself further, that it's hard to wrap my mind around this dilemma. And if she gets even a remote chance, I know she'll take it.
I'm going to keep at this,
Cyndi
Saturday, November 17, 2018
The Good, The Bad, and The Unfortunate
These last couple of weeks have flown by. And I'm happy to say that the lambing and births were a success. Yes, there were some ups and downs, some questions of whether things were going to be okay - or not. Overall, I'll consider it a wonderful 1st time lambing success.
I left off with Belle having her lamb, Lulu. Lulu looks exactly like Belle! She's going to be tall, like her mama. Lulu has nursed well from Belle, and is growing at a normal pace. All the lambs will continue to nurse until almost 3 months old. Lulu is nibbling at the alfalfa hay, and sleeping (at night) on one of the dog beds in the sheep pen regularly. She's begun playing with the other lambs, and is joyous and happy. Her unfavorite thing is the really cold weather. We had 3-4 nights straight of 20 degree nights. Lulu is not a fan. I'm so proud of her, and I don't really know why. I just am. She's been a breeze to handle, observing her growth, and be an independent lamb. Belle turned out to be an amazing mama, and continues to love and nurture Lulu. They are quite the team! And maybe Belle still looks pregnant, but that's our Belle. She loves her grain, and will still drink out of the bottle that's intended for Grace.
Speaking of Grace, she was first born of Eve's twins, and seemed the sturdiest at first glance, and that first day. That lasted for about a day or two, maybe. We saw it coming, that Eve would not be the best mama to Grace, as she favored Clara instead. Clara was small and petite at birth, and despite our first impression, has far surpassed Grace in size. Eve allowed Clara to nurse often and well. Granted, Eve only has one udder of milk, but it's a huge udder full of plenty of milk for both lambs. But as sheep do, they tend to "kick off" a lamb, and favor another. Clara was the chosen one, while Grace begin to slowly starve, if she was to be left alone to only get milk from Eve. Starvation in lambs is one of the two major reasons lambs die. The sheep mamas will turn away their own lamb baby(s) and it's hard to watch. So sad. But it's part of raising sheep, and a good shepherd/shepherdess will watch for these signs. Management of the lambing process is critical to the success of the lambs. And we did start supplementing Grace soon after we saw what was occurring. But as instinct tells them, Grace wanted her mama's milk, and would shun the bottle. But hunger and time changed all that. Grace slowly begin to take the bottle more, and learned that we were her source of milk. Her bottle milk has become a main-stay for her, and she's supplementing from Eve whenever she can get a quick drink from her mama. Which is not often. Therefore, we needed to enlist someone to come give Grace a bottle at lunchtime. Insert awesome Paul and Angela. They are friends who also live in Gunter, and come daily to feed Grace at lunchtime. What a blessing. They offer Grace a bottle during the day while we are at work. This holds Grace over, until we come home. Grace is now up to 1, sometimes 1 1/2 bottles in the morning, 1/2 bottle at lunch, and then another 1-1 1/2 bottles again in the evening. Finally, she has perked up! She's been out playing with the other lambs now. She's significantly smaller than Clara and Lulu, as she's had a rough go of it with being pushed away by Eve. But she is thriving well now, and will catch up in size eventually. She's the oldest, yet so much smaller, that you'd think she was much younger. Just the fact that she's going to survive is magical. All 3 lambs will be okay, and considering we have been bouncing along this lamb journey, we are thrilled beyond words. Angela and Paul may not realize it completely, but they are key. Key in offering Grace what she needs when we are not there. Thank you, Paul, for taking time out of every day to nurture one who now sees you as their "mama".
As I breathe a big sign of relief for the safety and security of the lambs future, I would deflate in a different area. Whisper. Awwwhhh, sweet livestock-guard-dog-never-known-any-other-life-dog-of-ours. Whisper had her surgery this past Tuesday. Successful TPLO with screws, plate and such. I brought her home Wednesday evening with a incision 8 inches long down her back left leg. Her back story is that she "came with the house". Her brother, Levi, and herself had been brought to the farm as Great Pyrenees pups, and when we bought the house, they were part of the deal. Best deal ever, by the way. They are livestock guard dogs like no other, except Whisper struggled with her back leg and a torn cruciate ligament. It's hard to run like that, and the pain was beginning to affect her appetite, and her lifestyle. It was hard to watch, as she takes her job seriously and continues to guard no matter what. She's Super Dog. So we had a couple of options: let her go lame, put her down, or surgery. Wow, none of those were remotely good. So, surgery it is. But there was no one there to tell me you can't take the guard out of the guard dog. It would be a hard lesson learned.
David and I had dotted the i's and crossed the t's. Her place was ready for her, after surgery. We had a brand new clean dog bed (infection control), rubber flooring placed so she wouldn't slide with her legs on the tile/wood floors, and a chain link fence gate secured strongly, across the large area she would reside for months in the laundry room. Inside. Yes, we were ready. Little did we know that Whisper wasn't. Sure, we knew it would be hard, she would adjust, right? She would be hurting from the pain and lay low. The Vet demanded/highly recommended she be place in the house, and contained there. "The barn would be too dirty, too much temptation and stress, as she would not be able to do her usual job of guarding", we were told. You ready for this? No running for 4-6 months. Confinement. Okay, then, we are ALL IN. Mentally and physically we had prepared and looked forward to helping her get better. We thought we had it all under control. Uh, no.
Whisper does not walk on a leash. She has only lived in the pasture and barn. That's all she knows, and that's who she is. That's where she's happy. Period. The End. She desires no other life. Getting her to and from the vet for surgery was arduous and wearisome. She's never really been out of the pasture, as her shots from the vet have always been with Farm Visits from the vet. Now, she's in a car, on a leash, and in a house, all with 24-48 hours. She's stressed, panting, slobbering, and whining uncontrollably. We do everything we can to console her along this journey. She's inconsolable. All she wants is her brother and the pasture. So we do the opposite after surgery, and bring her in the house where it's warm, comfortable and pain meds are flowing like a foundation. She'll adjust, right? Uh, no. After hard work, begging, prompting and physical work, Whisper is placed in her appointed Recovery Area, whereby she'll reside for at least 2-3 months, minimum. There are puppy pads for pottying purposes, a bed for comfort, and rubber mats so not to slip and hurt herself and what the doctor has repaired.
1st night in the Recovery Area went splendid. Wow, she's not that happy, but she's doing "okay". The next day arrives and it's Day 1 in the Recovery Area. 5 hours later, while we are at work, she's dug out of the chain link fence we had secured well. The base of the fence held fine, but Whisper literally tore part the chain link part. I have no idea how this can happen, as it's a manufactured product that holds in many peoples pets in this universe. Not Whisper. With blood below it, she fought that fence hard, and she won. I've never seen anything like it. I had been watching her on the security camera I set up near her, (off and on during the day) and notice she's escaped. How did I miss that?! I immediately leave work, fly home in my car, and pull down the drive. Yep. There she is. Back in the pasture, down by the pond with her brother Levi. I see how happy she is. I'm swirling in emotions at this point. Mad, sad, upset, disappointed I can't even keep a dog locked up, if I wanted to. I'm so mad at myself for letting this happen. Out of the car and into the house to pull myself together and make a plan. I'll leave the details out, but within about 10 minutes, I have her back in the barn in a caged area, Recovery Area #2, I'll call it. Another chain linked fence 10X10. I'll save you time and tell you that it didn't take long for her to pull apart that fence. Her desire is far greater than the pain she experiences doing that. But this time, I was there. David begin putting together some fencing that is welded, and again, we make her Recovery Area #3. Welded fencing. How can she get out of that? She can't. Eventually, she relinquishes her Will. It's not going to be "her" Will be done.
Big sigh. The question is now, did she mess her leg up? She wasn't touching it on the ground when she was out. The better question is, how could she NOT have messed it up? I feel so responsible that I'm beside myself. What should I do? Pray. And I do just that all week. I pray and pray that God will show mercy on Whisper - and me, and allow her leg to heal. According to the Vet now, time will tell. They will X-ray it again when she gets her stitches out. The waiting begins.
For now, she's in the barn, in a welded fenced area and everything they told us not to do - we've done. Dayummm. I'm a nurse, how could I do everything wrong. Everything. Just typing this is painful. And quite frankly, her leg looks pretty good. She did some toe touching on it today. She's eating wonderfully and taking all her medication. She's tolerating the Recovery Area #3. And, despite the fact that she mutilated her Cone of Shame on Day 1, she is leaving her incision alone, and it looks good. Bright side, I suppose.
Sometimes things we touch in life, turn to gold. In this particular case, not so much. I will use my arsenal of Hope and Faith to pull through this. They are the goldfish in the glass fishbowl, as I like to coin it. Hope and Faith. Swimming around in my heart and head. They are two things in life that are nonnegotiable. First and foremost, trust in God, then it's Hope and Faith that sees me through. And pray. No matter what, I know that it is in God's hands, and that in itself brings me all the comfort I need. And you know I'll keep you posted.
It will be okay. I'm throwing that out to the universe. It will be okay.
Cyndi
I left off with Belle having her lamb, Lulu. Lulu looks exactly like Belle! She's going to be tall, like her mama. Lulu has nursed well from Belle, and is growing at a normal pace. All the lambs will continue to nurse until almost 3 months old. Lulu is nibbling at the alfalfa hay, and sleeping (at night) on one of the dog beds in the sheep pen regularly. She's begun playing with the other lambs, and is joyous and happy. Her unfavorite thing is the really cold weather. We had 3-4 nights straight of 20 degree nights. Lulu is not a fan. I'm so proud of her, and I don't really know why. I just am. She's been a breeze to handle, observing her growth, and be an independent lamb. Belle turned out to be an amazing mama, and continues to love and nurture Lulu. They are quite the team! And maybe Belle still looks pregnant, but that's our Belle. She loves her grain, and will still drink out of the bottle that's intended for Grace.
Speaking of Grace, she was first born of Eve's twins, and seemed the sturdiest at first glance, and that first day. That lasted for about a day or two, maybe. We saw it coming, that Eve would not be the best mama to Grace, as she favored Clara instead. Clara was small and petite at birth, and despite our first impression, has far surpassed Grace in size. Eve allowed Clara to nurse often and well. Granted, Eve only has one udder of milk, but it's a huge udder full of plenty of milk for both lambs. But as sheep do, they tend to "kick off" a lamb, and favor another. Clara was the chosen one, while Grace begin to slowly starve, if she was to be left alone to only get milk from Eve. Starvation in lambs is one of the two major reasons lambs die. The sheep mamas will turn away their own lamb baby(s) and it's hard to watch. So sad. But it's part of raising sheep, and a good shepherd/shepherdess will watch for these signs. Management of the lambing process is critical to the success of the lambs. And we did start supplementing Grace soon after we saw what was occurring. But as instinct tells them, Grace wanted her mama's milk, and would shun the bottle. But hunger and time changed all that. Grace slowly begin to take the bottle more, and learned that we were her source of milk. Her bottle milk has become a main-stay for her, and she's supplementing from Eve whenever she can get a quick drink from her mama. Which is not often. Therefore, we needed to enlist someone to come give Grace a bottle at lunchtime. Insert awesome Paul and Angela. They are friends who also live in Gunter, and come daily to feed Grace at lunchtime. What a blessing. They offer Grace a bottle during the day while we are at work. This holds Grace over, until we come home. Grace is now up to 1, sometimes 1 1/2 bottles in the morning, 1/2 bottle at lunch, and then another 1-1 1/2 bottles again in the evening. Finally, she has perked up! She's been out playing with the other lambs now. She's significantly smaller than Clara and Lulu, as she's had a rough go of it with being pushed away by Eve. But she is thriving well now, and will catch up in size eventually. She's the oldest, yet so much smaller, that you'd think she was much younger. Just the fact that she's going to survive is magical. All 3 lambs will be okay, and considering we have been bouncing along this lamb journey, we are thrilled beyond words. Angela and Paul may not realize it completely, but they are key. Key in offering Grace what she needs when we are not there. Thank you, Paul, for taking time out of every day to nurture one who now sees you as their "mama".
As I breathe a big sign of relief for the safety and security of the lambs future, I would deflate in a different area. Whisper. Awwwhhh, sweet livestock-guard-dog-never-known-any-other-life-dog-of-ours. Whisper had her surgery this past Tuesday. Successful TPLO with screws, plate and such. I brought her home Wednesday evening with a incision 8 inches long down her back left leg. Her back story is that she "came with the house". Her brother, Levi, and herself had been brought to the farm as Great Pyrenees pups, and when we bought the house, they were part of the deal. Best deal ever, by the way. They are livestock guard dogs like no other, except Whisper struggled with her back leg and a torn cruciate ligament. It's hard to run like that, and the pain was beginning to affect her appetite, and her lifestyle. It was hard to watch, as she takes her job seriously and continues to guard no matter what. She's Super Dog. So we had a couple of options: let her go lame, put her down, or surgery. Wow, none of those were remotely good. So, surgery it is. But there was no one there to tell me you can't take the guard out of the guard dog. It would be a hard lesson learned.
David and I had dotted the i's and crossed the t's. Her place was ready for her, after surgery. We had a brand new clean dog bed (infection control), rubber flooring placed so she wouldn't slide with her legs on the tile/wood floors, and a chain link fence gate secured strongly, across the large area she would reside for months in the laundry room. Inside. Yes, we were ready. Little did we know that Whisper wasn't. Sure, we knew it would be hard, she would adjust, right? She would be hurting from the pain and lay low. The Vet demanded/highly recommended she be place in the house, and contained there. "The barn would be too dirty, too much temptation and stress, as she would not be able to do her usual job of guarding", we were told. You ready for this? No running for 4-6 months. Confinement. Okay, then, we are ALL IN. Mentally and physically we had prepared and looked forward to helping her get better. We thought we had it all under control. Uh, no.
Whisper does not walk on a leash. She has only lived in the pasture and barn. That's all she knows, and that's who she is. That's where she's happy. Period. The End. She desires no other life. Getting her to and from the vet for surgery was arduous and wearisome. She's never really been out of the pasture, as her shots from the vet have always been with Farm Visits from the vet. Now, she's in a car, on a leash, and in a house, all with 24-48 hours. She's stressed, panting, slobbering, and whining uncontrollably. We do everything we can to console her along this journey. She's inconsolable. All she wants is her brother and the pasture. So we do the opposite after surgery, and bring her in the house where it's warm, comfortable and pain meds are flowing like a foundation. She'll adjust, right? Uh, no. After hard work, begging, prompting and physical work, Whisper is placed in her appointed Recovery Area, whereby she'll reside for at least 2-3 months, minimum. There are puppy pads for pottying purposes, a bed for comfort, and rubber mats so not to slip and hurt herself and what the doctor has repaired.
1st night in the Recovery Area went splendid. Wow, she's not that happy, but she's doing "okay". The next day arrives and it's Day 1 in the Recovery Area. 5 hours later, while we are at work, she's dug out of the chain link fence we had secured well. The base of the fence held fine, but Whisper literally tore part the chain link part. I have no idea how this can happen, as it's a manufactured product that holds in many peoples pets in this universe. Not Whisper. With blood below it, she fought that fence hard, and she won. I've never seen anything like it. I had been watching her on the security camera I set up near her, (off and on during the day) and notice she's escaped. How did I miss that?! I immediately leave work, fly home in my car, and pull down the drive. Yep. There she is. Back in the pasture, down by the pond with her brother Levi. I see how happy she is. I'm swirling in emotions at this point. Mad, sad, upset, disappointed I can't even keep a dog locked up, if I wanted to. I'm so mad at myself for letting this happen. Out of the car and into the house to pull myself together and make a plan. I'll leave the details out, but within about 10 minutes, I have her back in the barn in a caged area, Recovery Area #2, I'll call it. Another chain linked fence 10X10. I'll save you time and tell you that it didn't take long for her to pull apart that fence. Her desire is far greater than the pain she experiences doing that. But this time, I was there. David begin putting together some fencing that is welded, and again, we make her Recovery Area #3. Welded fencing. How can she get out of that? She can't. Eventually, she relinquishes her Will. It's not going to be "her" Will be done.
Big sigh. The question is now, did she mess her leg up? She wasn't touching it on the ground when she was out. The better question is, how could she NOT have messed it up? I feel so responsible that I'm beside myself. What should I do? Pray. And I do just that all week. I pray and pray that God will show mercy on Whisper - and me, and allow her leg to heal. According to the Vet now, time will tell. They will X-ray it again when she gets her stitches out. The waiting begins.
For now, she's in the barn, in a welded fenced area and everything they told us not to do - we've done. Dayummm. I'm a nurse, how could I do everything wrong. Everything. Just typing this is painful. And quite frankly, her leg looks pretty good. She did some toe touching on it today. She's eating wonderfully and taking all her medication. She's tolerating the Recovery Area #3. And, despite the fact that she mutilated her Cone of Shame on Day 1, she is leaving her incision alone, and it looks good. Bright side, I suppose.
Sometimes things we touch in life, turn to gold. In this particular case, not so much. I will use my arsenal of Hope and Faith to pull through this. They are the goldfish in the glass fishbowl, as I like to coin it. Hope and Faith. Swimming around in my heart and head. They are two things in life that are nonnegotiable. First and foremost, trust in God, then it's Hope and Faith that sees me through. And pray. No matter what, I know that it is in God's hands, and that in itself brings me all the comfort I need. And you know I'll keep you posted.
It will be okay. I'm throwing that out to the universe. It will be okay.
Cyndi
Saturday, November 3, 2018
Belle's Turn
It seems only hours after my last post, that Belle gave birth. Soon ended up being real soon. It was deja vu at it's best. I was driving down the gravel drive to the house, and I do a double-take, with thinking I saw 3 lambs, instead of 2. One lamb was with Belle. I slow down in the car, and carefully count. Yep, three lambs! Eve and her twins, and Belle with one. I drive up just enough to jump out of the car, and go investigate. I run out to where Belle is and realize she has indeed had this lamb. I touch the lamb, and she's dry. That means Belle had to have her earlier in the day. Then, those same thoughts begin: Where did she have her lamb, is there more, is she done, did she have another lamb and leave it somewhere, is everyone okay? So many questions. I walk around, looking to make sure there is not another lamb, and checking to see where she had her lamb. It seems these lambs just drop from the sky while I'm at work. No evidence anywhere, that Belle had her lamb in the pasture or in the barn. So my next thought is: will Belle be having another lamb? If the one she's had is already dry, I doubt it. I had predicted triplets for Belle, because she was quite large. But, I've mentioned it before, Belle's just a big girl, and she's my girl.
The little lamb beside Belle is trying to nurse. I know the best thing for them is to get them in the lambing stall in the barn. That way, I can isolate them so they can bond, nurse and be safe. I did this with Eve and the twins for about 3-4 days, to let the lambs get strong enough to venture out. So in order to get Belle in the barn, I pick up the lamb, and carry her slowly towards the barn. Belle follows me crying out for her baby. I make it to the lambing stall, and have no trouble getting them settled there. I do the usual food of grain and alfalfa, lots of water, along with straw in which to snuggle in. I turn the heat lamp on for the lamb. This is the critical first 24 hours. The first critical item is to name her, of course. LuLu it is. LuLu The Lamb. I must watch LuLu to make sure she nurses and gets that first milk from Belle. But uh oh. Belle's udders are not hardly filled at all. Not anything close to how Eve's were. LuLu does nurse on Belle, and I've read in my Raising Sheep book, that sometimes the milk does not come in until after the ewe gives birth. Well, Belle has til in the morning to get some milk in those udders, or else we will be bottle feeding this one. How appropriate that is, since Belle was a bottle baby from literally Day 1. I'll give her a little time in the lambing stall to settle in, and keep watch closely.
At this point, Eve's twins are about 12 days old. They are still nursing on one udder. Clara is nursing the most, with Grace getting the leftovers. We have already been offering them bottles, as we wanted to make sure if they are hungry, that they have another option. Thus far, they have not taken more than a few sips of the bottle. That's a good sign, as they are, at this point, getting the milk they need. But that will be short lived.
All evening, David and I watch LuLu and Belle. Eventually, Belle and LuLu begin their bonding rituals using their sheep language. It's different than Eve's, but effective just the same. I know that Belle will only be having this one lamb, as too much time has elapsed for another one to appear. LuLu is nursing, and although I'm unsure of the amount and frequency, I know that in the morning I can monitor this further. I am happy to report that Belle's udders the following morning have grown substantially, and she is working hard at nursing LuLu. They are a match made in heaven. Belle's headdress is exactly the same as LuLu's. LuLu looks exactly like Belle did when she was a baby. (LuLu's marking are different than Clara and Grace's.) She is a carbon copy of Belle. Belle's mini-her. Thank you, Sam. I owe you big, my friend. You have given us the gifts that we had only dreamt of.
As Belle and LuLu take up residence in the lambing stall, Eve and the twins share the area of the barn beside them. Just as Belle did, while she waited for Eve to be released. The tables are now turned. Eve is just busy trying to keep up with her lambs, eat enough, nurse them and live her life. Belle is doing the same, just 12 days behind Eve.
Belle is very laid back. She doesn't get too frazzled by much. Her and LuLu are now on day 4 in the lambing stall and I let them out today to venture out into the world together. Belle was very happy to be free, but she watched her baby close. And so did Eve. Eve did not like Belle's new lamb. I don't think I would have guessed that, but it's true. Eve would try to head butt her, and LuLu was scared out of her mind. She's just a few days old, and someone is chasing her. This will take time to acclimate them all together. It will all be okay, once everyone gets to know everyone better. Baby steps with the introductions.
In the meantime, while all this has been going on, Little Grace is noticeably lagging behind. She's not as playful as Clara, and is just a touch smaller. David watched Clara and Grace, off and on on Friday when he had the day off work, and was able to assess that Grace would need more aggressive supplementing. Eve was not allowing her to nurse as much as Clara, and Clara was the more aggressive nurser. I came home from work that day, and we fixed a bottle (like we had offered them before), but this time Grace drank enough to make us realize that she's very hungry. By the next morning, she drank a whole bottle, and it's only been a short time for us to supplement her nursing with a bottle, but she knows she wants it. All good news. Dr Shelton had mentioned that supplementation might be needed when it comes to Eve's twins and one udder. And we are ready and willing to do that. Who wouldn't want to give a bottle to a willing participant of a cuddly cute baby lamb. Baby animals are adorable, but getting to bond with them in this way, and have them imprint to you will last a lifetime. Already, our sweet Grace sees me walking toward her, and baa's in that little tiny voice of hers, asking for her bottle. It doesn't take long, as these little one's instinct kicks in strong. Need milk, must have milk, who has the milk.
Along with this fun of lambing, we've begun to let the puppies out and roam the pasture with Levi and Whisper. Levi and Whisper are setting the tone for whose the boss. Davis and Dixie (also brother and sister) are our two trainees. Duke was given to a family friend, who also raises sheep and chickens, except they do not have any guard dogs, so they are struggling to keep their livestock away from predators. When they were over recently, we were having this conversation and it seemed natural to give them one of our suburb puppies to help them with their farm. Duke will be a perfect guard for them, and we are happy for them all.
Davis and Duke are beginning to acclimate to the world outside of their safe, fenced area. They feel secure there, and go back to "their little home" sometimes, while out investigating. But, they love being out smelling, playing, watching, and basically checking everything out. They smell literally everything, and have the freedom to look around. They watch Levi and Whisper, not knowing that one day, that will be them. Whisper goes in for surgery in a week, and she will be housed in the lambing shed for about a week, before she will reside in a 10X10 fenced area to recover. (Belle and LuLu should be out of that area by then). The recovery time for Whisper will be 2-3 months of staying still, no running, and letting her leg heal. She'll be having a TPLO (tibial plateau leveling osteotomy). Whisper will have an incision down the length of her back left leg, will have her cruciate ligament fixed, and she'll have a screw placed to hold it in the proper position while it all heals. It's similar to an ACL surgery in a human. The recovery time is lengthy, and it's imperative that she does not run, and only rest, heal and recuperate for 8-12 weeks. As a guard dog whose used to running and "working", this will be a challenge. We've positioned her to have the ability to be beside (with a chain link fence between) her partner and brother, Levi. He will still be working, and will have the pups to keep him occupied. This will be a very trying time for everyone, but we will get through it. Whisper is at the point where she is not weight bearing on that hurt leg, so it has to be fixed. There is no other option. She's still young enough to be able to heal from this, and then an evaluation will be done on whether she can work again, or not. Only time will give us this answer. Dr Shelton says Yes, and he seems to always be right. So that's good news, esp for a dog who wants to work. But we will give Whisper the option, and will see what serves her, too. Having her caged could be one of the most difficult things we've had to do with one of our animals. I'm thinking since she'll be hurting and healing, that will keep her at bay.
The next week will bring it's own set of challenges with incorporating Belle and LuLu along with Eve, Clara and Grace. It seems like this would be an easy task, right? Oh, but contraire. They are both ewe's who have just had lambs, why the contention? Why can't we all just get along? I think if I wouldn't be such a helicopter Shepherdess, then I might not even know it happens, under normal conditions with most every flock. And they probably just work it out among themselves. Dang, that's hard to do, but I promise I will try to let nature teach them how to all get along.
As this next chapter evolves, Grace will continue to be bottle supplemented, and we will watch the others for the same need. Cold weather is coming, the holidays will arrive, and life just keeps getting better all the time. If it wasn't for David wanting to have lambs so badly, I would have been content in life to have my little flock of ewes, just like they were. But my eyes have been opened to a whole new world now.
I've learned so much these last 16 days. Lambing is not easy. There's so many things to consider, to watch for, to be ready for and then it keeps going, evolving and a very fluid process. Who knew? Not me. But now I know. My biggest take-away thus far? Management. It's all about managing what's happening, what's about to happen, and making things happen. Lamb management. Is there a class for that somewhere, because I would go. Or I should have gone. Yes, I have watched my share of YouTubes on it, but they usually just scare me. So I quit watching them. And now I'm bouncing along trying to keep everybody alive. Did I mention I don't know what I'm doing? I've learned so much, and I know there will more learning ahead. It's not done. It's just starting.
Hanging on for this ride and loving it,
Cyndi
The little lamb beside Belle is trying to nurse. I know the best thing for them is to get them in the lambing stall in the barn. That way, I can isolate them so they can bond, nurse and be safe. I did this with Eve and the twins for about 3-4 days, to let the lambs get strong enough to venture out. So in order to get Belle in the barn, I pick up the lamb, and carry her slowly towards the barn. Belle follows me crying out for her baby. I make it to the lambing stall, and have no trouble getting them settled there. I do the usual food of grain and alfalfa, lots of water, along with straw in which to snuggle in. I turn the heat lamp on for the lamb. This is the critical first 24 hours. The first critical item is to name her, of course. LuLu it is. LuLu The Lamb. I must watch LuLu to make sure she nurses and gets that first milk from Belle. But uh oh. Belle's udders are not hardly filled at all. Not anything close to how Eve's were. LuLu does nurse on Belle, and I've read in my Raising Sheep book, that sometimes the milk does not come in until after the ewe gives birth. Well, Belle has til in the morning to get some milk in those udders, or else we will be bottle feeding this one. How appropriate that is, since Belle was a bottle baby from literally Day 1. I'll give her a little time in the lambing stall to settle in, and keep watch closely.
At this point, Eve's twins are about 12 days old. They are still nursing on one udder. Clara is nursing the most, with Grace getting the leftovers. We have already been offering them bottles, as we wanted to make sure if they are hungry, that they have another option. Thus far, they have not taken more than a few sips of the bottle. That's a good sign, as they are, at this point, getting the milk they need. But that will be short lived.
All evening, David and I watch LuLu and Belle. Eventually, Belle and LuLu begin their bonding rituals using their sheep language. It's different than Eve's, but effective just the same. I know that Belle will only be having this one lamb, as too much time has elapsed for another one to appear. LuLu is nursing, and although I'm unsure of the amount and frequency, I know that in the morning I can monitor this further. I am happy to report that Belle's udders the following morning have grown substantially, and she is working hard at nursing LuLu. They are a match made in heaven. Belle's headdress is exactly the same as LuLu's. LuLu looks exactly like Belle did when she was a baby. (LuLu's marking are different than Clara and Grace's.) She is a carbon copy of Belle. Belle's mini-her. Thank you, Sam. I owe you big, my friend. You have given us the gifts that we had only dreamt of.
As Belle and LuLu take up residence in the lambing stall, Eve and the twins share the area of the barn beside them. Just as Belle did, while she waited for Eve to be released. The tables are now turned. Eve is just busy trying to keep up with her lambs, eat enough, nurse them and live her life. Belle is doing the same, just 12 days behind Eve.
Belle is very laid back. She doesn't get too frazzled by much. Her and LuLu are now on day 4 in the lambing stall and I let them out today to venture out into the world together. Belle was very happy to be free, but she watched her baby close. And so did Eve. Eve did not like Belle's new lamb. I don't think I would have guessed that, but it's true. Eve would try to head butt her, and LuLu was scared out of her mind. She's just a few days old, and someone is chasing her. This will take time to acclimate them all together. It will all be okay, once everyone gets to know everyone better. Baby steps with the introductions.
In the meantime, while all this has been going on, Little Grace is noticeably lagging behind. She's not as playful as Clara, and is just a touch smaller. David watched Clara and Grace, off and on on Friday when he had the day off work, and was able to assess that Grace would need more aggressive supplementing. Eve was not allowing her to nurse as much as Clara, and Clara was the more aggressive nurser. I came home from work that day, and we fixed a bottle (like we had offered them before), but this time Grace drank enough to make us realize that she's very hungry. By the next morning, she drank a whole bottle, and it's only been a short time for us to supplement her nursing with a bottle, but she knows she wants it. All good news. Dr Shelton had mentioned that supplementation might be needed when it comes to Eve's twins and one udder. And we are ready and willing to do that. Who wouldn't want to give a bottle to a willing participant of a cuddly cute baby lamb. Baby animals are adorable, but getting to bond with them in this way, and have them imprint to you will last a lifetime. Already, our sweet Grace sees me walking toward her, and baa's in that little tiny voice of hers, asking for her bottle. It doesn't take long, as these little one's instinct kicks in strong. Need milk, must have milk, who has the milk.
Along with this fun of lambing, we've begun to let the puppies out and roam the pasture with Levi and Whisper. Levi and Whisper are setting the tone for whose the boss. Davis and Dixie (also brother and sister) are our two trainees. Duke was given to a family friend, who also raises sheep and chickens, except they do not have any guard dogs, so they are struggling to keep their livestock away from predators. When they were over recently, we were having this conversation and it seemed natural to give them one of our suburb puppies to help them with their farm. Duke will be a perfect guard for them, and we are happy for them all.
Davis and Duke are beginning to acclimate to the world outside of their safe, fenced area. They feel secure there, and go back to "their little home" sometimes, while out investigating. But, they love being out smelling, playing, watching, and basically checking everything out. They smell literally everything, and have the freedom to look around. They watch Levi and Whisper, not knowing that one day, that will be them. Whisper goes in for surgery in a week, and she will be housed in the lambing shed for about a week, before she will reside in a 10X10 fenced area to recover. (Belle and LuLu should be out of that area by then). The recovery time for Whisper will be 2-3 months of staying still, no running, and letting her leg heal. She'll be having a TPLO (tibial plateau leveling osteotomy). Whisper will have an incision down the length of her back left leg, will have her cruciate ligament fixed, and she'll have a screw placed to hold it in the proper position while it all heals. It's similar to an ACL surgery in a human. The recovery time is lengthy, and it's imperative that she does not run, and only rest, heal and recuperate for 8-12 weeks. As a guard dog whose used to running and "working", this will be a challenge. We've positioned her to have the ability to be beside (with a chain link fence between) her partner and brother, Levi. He will still be working, and will have the pups to keep him occupied. This will be a very trying time for everyone, but we will get through it. Whisper is at the point where she is not weight bearing on that hurt leg, so it has to be fixed. There is no other option. She's still young enough to be able to heal from this, and then an evaluation will be done on whether she can work again, or not. Only time will give us this answer. Dr Shelton says Yes, and he seems to always be right. So that's good news, esp for a dog who wants to work. But we will give Whisper the option, and will see what serves her, too. Having her caged could be one of the most difficult things we've had to do with one of our animals. I'm thinking since she'll be hurting and healing, that will keep her at bay.
The next week will bring it's own set of challenges with incorporating Belle and LuLu along with Eve, Clara and Grace. It seems like this would be an easy task, right? Oh, but contraire. They are both ewe's who have just had lambs, why the contention? Why can't we all just get along? I think if I wouldn't be such a helicopter Shepherdess, then I might not even know it happens, under normal conditions with most every flock. And they probably just work it out among themselves. Dang, that's hard to do, but I promise I will try to let nature teach them how to all get along.
As this next chapter evolves, Grace will continue to be bottle supplemented, and we will watch the others for the same need. Cold weather is coming, the holidays will arrive, and life just keeps getting better all the time. If it wasn't for David wanting to have lambs so badly, I would have been content in life to have my little flock of ewes, just like they were. But my eyes have been opened to a whole new world now.
I've learned so much these last 16 days. Lambing is not easy. There's so many things to consider, to watch for, to be ready for and then it keeps going, evolving and a very fluid process. Who knew? Not me. But now I know. My biggest take-away thus far? Management. It's all about managing what's happening, what's about to happen, and making things happen. Lamb management. Is there a class for that somewhere, because I would go. Or I should have gone. Yes, I have watched my share of YouTubes on it, but they usually just scare me. So I quit watching them. And now I'm bouncing along trying to keep everybody alive. Did I mention I don't know what I'm doing? I've learned so much, and I know there will more learning ahead. It's not done. It's just starting.
Hanging on for this ride and loving it,
Cyndi
Tuesday, October 30, 2018
Lambing 101
As Day 11 approaches for Grace and Clara's little lamb life, a lot has happened. I left off where Eve had her sweet twins, and settled in for the night. I will say that a big part of the reason David and I are both "worried" about the lambs is mainly because we struggled to get Belle through her first 2 weeks of life, getting her to feed with a bottle, and felt the responsibility of her life on our shoulders. Now, with two lambs at once, we were relieved that Eve was such a good mama to them.
Then, it happened. We noticed it the following day after the twins were born. The twins were only able to get milk out of one of Eve's udders/nipples. It became more and more profound, and the twins were fighting for one teat. I googled how to help this situation, but quickly realized I would need Dr Shelton to come check things out. And he did. Dr Shelton came back to the farm and evaluated Eve. He said, sure enough, that Eve was likely to only be able to give milk from one teat. He catheterized the "bad" teat, he gave antibiotics, he gave her a steroid shot (to be given again for two more days as well). But the udder would not produce milk. It was swollen by now, hard to the touch, and painful. Likely mastitis, or a nonfunctioning udder. This began making it harder for the lambs to suckle, because they would accidentally knock or hit the "bad" udder when they were nursing, and it would cause Eve to move away from her lambs due to the pain. The lambs would run towards her, still wanting to be fed. Dr Shelton had told us we were likely to have to bottle feed or supplement Eve's milk with bottles. He did shed some light onto the situation by saying that the one remaining udder/teat may start developing more milk. Only time would tell. It never did, so the twins would be left to nurse off of one teat and one udder of milk.
Grace and Clara were still doing well, acclimating to their surroundings. At Day 4, we let them move around on their own free will. Out of the barn, into the pasture if they wanted. They could always go back into the barn anytime. Our guard dogs, Levi and Whisper immediately took to protecting the lambs. They did not want any other dogs, chicken or such to get close. What good LGD's they are. The lambs were drinking from the only milk available, and sharing the teat/udder. Dr Shelton had warned us to watch for Eve to "kick one of the lambs off" because sheep will do that, esp with her current udder situation. But Eve kept on, letting both her babies nurse and take turns.
I did make a trip to The Dollar Store, because they have everything and it's close, and bought a couple of baby bottles. I dropped by the feed store to buy Lamb Milk Replacer. It's just like baby formula, but for lambs. I was set to begin the process of acclimating the lambs to the possibility of taking a bottle, in addition to nursing. Dr Shelton says when they get hungry enough, they will take the bottle, and that Eve will ultimately not be able to keep up with the lambs nutritional needs. It's only a matter of time, really. Good news? The lambs will most likely start nibbling alfalfa, grains and grass earlier than usual, due to this situation.
Day 6 arrives, and I go to the barn to check on everyone. Grace and Clara are thriving, and each day I'm pleasantly surprised. I have begun offering them a bottle morning and evening. Today is no different, and they reject it at first each time. But Clara will normally take a ounce or two, as Grace gets a taste and nurses while Clara takes the bottle. They both continue to nurse during the day on Eve, and nibble on whatever their mama nibbles on. They literally do whatever she does. They never get far from her, and the three of them talk to each other constantly. Sheep language is interesting. You can tell by their tone what they are saying. I'm lost! I need to be snuggled. I'm hungry. Where did you go? Night night. It's all very sweet.
This will be Eve's only lambing. Her udder malfunction is the #1 reason for culling. When a ewe cannot nurse appropriately, they typically should not lamb again. It's too risky. In the real sheep world, she would be sent to the freezer. But we are certainly far from that. So she will enjoy her life with her two babies, by her side, in the pasture for as long as she desires. They will wean with time, and in no hurry.
As the days pass, Eve and her lambs venture out further and further. The other day, they were down at the pond. I was so worried they might fall in the pond. What if!? Or it might be too far of a walk for those little lambs. Not to worry, they are doing real lambs things. When we compare them to Belle at that age, she didn't have a mama, and lived in the house with a diaper on. She stood on the dishwasher while I loaded it, she marched around the house in her little high heels (their hooves are thick and tall from the beginning of life), and she imprinted with David and I as her caregivers. She did not eat grain, grass or hay, even if we offered it. After all, we were not eating it. Only bottles. And she asked for them all the time. It wasn't until we bought Belle a couple of lambs friends, that she figured out she was to go out into the pasture and graze. It was quite a shock to her, but she did it. She learned how to be more sheep-like. But even today, she would rather be around us, very much like a dog would.
These new lambs will be nothing like that. They have eyes only for Eve. They are tough and thriving well. It's fun watching them grow up so differently. I certainly have learned a lot! And with that said, along comes Belle, following right behind Eve in the lambing department. Belle has grown significantly over the last week or so. Her udders are slowly growing, and it's hard to comprehend she will have babies too. We weren't sure, for so long, if she was pregnant. It's only been in the last week that we are seeing the real signs. The same ones we saw with Eve. Isolating themselves, nesting, resting more, seemingly uncomfortable, actually eating less. The last month of their 5 month pregnancy is when it all shows up. I somehow seem convinced she's going to have triplets. I just do. If I'm wrong, that's okay. After all, we've only picked out names for twins, so far. I picked out Poppy, and Lauren picked out LuLu. Granted, this is all assuming they will be girls, and it will be "they". Sam has done a fabulous job of helping us grow our flock. He's onto helping another family now, and will do the very same thing there. He sure throws pretty babies.
We saw Belle nesting in the barn area we made for Eve to give birth in. It's like she knows that's where she's supposed to be. She will have her day there. I don't know if it will be as smooth for Belle, as it was for Eve. Labor and delivery with no problems are certainly a blessing and it was not taken for granted. We hope the same is true for Belle, when the time comes. Maybe Eve and Belle talk about it in their sheep language.
The one thing I have failed to mention is their relationship. Throughout Eve's delivery and raising of the lambs, has been her best friend, Belle. They have been side by side through this. Belle would sit by the fenced area in the barn when Eve and the lambs were isolated for the first few days. She waited patiently. Eve has allowed her to be as close to her lambs as Belle desires to be. There is no competition. Just love between them.
As we wait and watch, living our life in fascination of these animals, I feel overly blessed at times that I have been entrusted to be their caretakers. I've read many blogs and sites on the internet of people just like us. Doing this hobby farm thing because it's what we love to do. Unsure, learning, hoping, guessing and loving every minute. To be outside, with no other people around and do exactly as you wish with no judgement. Only love and trust from the animals all around. It's my place in life. The one place that is therapeutic and peaceful. Literally, no other place I would rather be. Barn Sweet Barn.
Eve continues to amaze us with her motherly skills. She's doing a great job, and we love watching the new lambs grow and learn. I hurry home so fast after work these days. I can't wait to see everyone and how they are doing. And how everyone is doing. Speaking of, Whisper has surgery scheduled for 11/13 for her leg. She will be out of commission for 2-4 months recovering. The new LGD puppies will step up to the plate and be Levi's side kicks. That will be a circus in itself. Things continue to evolve and change. Everything is the same, yet nothing is the same. Another lambing event is coming......SOON. Belle will have her turn.
Soon.
Cyndi
Then, it happened. We noticed it the following day after the twins were born. The twins were only able to get milk out of one of Eve's udders/nipples. It became more and more profound, and the twins were fighting for one teat. I googled how to help this situation, but quickly realized I would need Dr Shelton to come check things out. And he did. Dr Shelton came back to the farm and evaluated Eve. He said, sure enough, that Eve was likely to only be able to give milk from one teat. He catheterized the "bad" teat, he gave antibiotics, he gave her a steroid shot (to be given again for two more days as well). But the udder would not produce milk. It was swollen by now, hard to the touch, and painful. Likely mastitis, or a nonfunctioning udder. This began making it harder for the lambs to suckle, because they would accidentally knock or hit the "bad" udder when they were nursing, and it would cause Eve to move away from her lambs due to the pain. The lambs would run towards her, still wanting to be fed. Dr Shelton had told us we were likely to have to bottle feed or supplement Eve's milk with bottles. He did shed some light onto the situation by saying that the one remaining udder/teat may start developing more milk. Only time would tell. It never did, so the twins would be left to nurse off of one teat and one udder of milk.
Grace and Clara were still doing well, acclimating to their surroundings. At Day 4, we let them move around on their own free will. Out of the barn, into the pasture if they wanted. They could always go back into the barn anytime. Our guard dogs, Levi and Whisper immediately took to protecting the lambs. They did not want any other dogs, chicken or such to get close. What good LGD's they are. The lambs were drinking from the only milk available, and sharing the teat/udder. Dr Shelton had warned us to watch for Eve to "kick one of the lambs off" because sheep will do that, esp with her current udder situation. But Eve kept on, letting both her babies nurse and take turns.
I did make a trip to The Dollar Store, because they have everything and it's close, and bought a couple of baby bottles. I dropped by the feed store to buy Lamb Milk Replacer. It's just like baby formula, but for lambs. I was set to begin the process of acclimating the lambs to the possibility of taking a bottle, in addition to nursing. Dr Shelton says when they get hungry enough, they will take the bottle, and that Eve will ultimately not be able to keep up with the lambs nutritional needs. It's only a matter of time, really. Good news? The lambs will most likely start nibbling alfalfa, grains and grass earlier than usual, due to this situation.
Day 6 arrives, and I go to the barn to check on everyone. Grace and Clara are thriving, and each day I'm pleasantly surprised. I have begun offering them a bottle morning and evening. Today is no different, and they reject it at first each time. But Clara will normally take a ounce or two, as Grace gets a taste and nurses while Clara takes the bottle. They both continue to nurse during the day on Eve, and nibble on whatever their mama nibbles on. They literally do whatever she does. They never get far from her, and the three of them talk to each other constantly. Sheep language is interesting. You can tell by their tone what they are saying. I'm lost! I need to be snuggled. I'm hungry. Where did you go? Night night. It's all very sweet.
This will be Eve's only lambing. Her udder malfunction is the #1 reason for culling. When a ewe cannot nurse appropriately, they typically should not lamb again. It's too risky. In the real sheep world, she would be sent to the freezer. But we are certainly far from that. So she will enjoy her life with her two babies, by her side, in the pasture for as long as she desires. They will wean with time, and in no hurry.
As the days pass, Eve and her lambs venture out further and further. The other day, they were down at the pond. I was so worried they might fall in the pond. What if!? Or it might be too far of a walk for those little lambs. Not to worry, they are doing real lambs things. When we compare them to Belle at that age, she didn't have a mama, and lived in the house with a diaper on. She stood on the dishwasher while I loaded it, she marched around the house in her little high heels (their hooves are thick and tall from the beginning of life), and she imprinted with David and I as her caregivers. She did not eat grain, grass or hay, even if we offered it. After all, we were not eating it. Only bottles. And she asked for them all the time. It wasn't until we bought Belle a couple of lambs friends, that she figured out she was to go out into the pasture and graze. It was quite a shock to her, but she did it. She learned how to be more sheep-like. But even today, she would rather be around us, very much like a dog would.
These new lambs will be nothing like that. They have eyes only for Eve. They are tough and thriving well. It's fun watching them grow up so differently. I certainly have learned a lot! And with that said, along comes Belle, following right behind Eve in the lambing department. Belle has grown significantly over the last week or so. Her udders are slowly growing, and it's hard to comprehend she will have babies too. We weren't sure, for so long, if she was pregnant. It's only been in the last week that we are seeing the real signs. The same ones we saw with Eve. Isolating themselves, nesting, resting more, seemingly uncomfortable, actually eating less. The last month of their 5 month pregnancy is when it all shows up. I somehow seem convinced she's going to have triplets. I just do. If I'm wrong, that's okay. After all, we've only picked out names for twins, so far. I picked out Poppy, and Lauren picked out LuLu. Granted, this is all assuming they will be girls, and it will be "they". Sam has done a fabulous job of helping us grow our flock. He's onto helping another family now, and will do the very same thing there. He sure throws pretty babies.
We saw Belle nesting in the barn area we made for Eve to give birth in. It's like she knows that's where she's supposed to be. She will have her day there. I don't know if it will be as smooth for Belle, as it was for Eve. Labor and delivery with no problems are certainly a blessing and it was not taken for granted. We hope the same is true for Belle, when the time comes. Maybe Eve and Belle talk about it in their sheep language.
The one thing I have failed to mention is their relationship. Throughout Eve's delivery and raising of the lambs, has been her best friend, Belle. They have been side by side through this. Belle would sit by the fenced area in the barn when Eve and the lambs were isolated for the first few days. She waited patiently. Eve has allowed her to be as close to her lambs as Belle desires to be. There is no competition. Just love between them.
As we wait and watch, living our life in fascination of these animals, I feel overly blessed at times that I have been entrusted to be their caretakers. I've read many blogs and sites on the internet of people just like us. Doing this hobby farm thing because it's what we love to do. Unsure, learning, hoping, guessing and loving every minute. To be outside, with no other people around and do exactly as you wish with no judgement. Only love and trust from the animals all around. It's my place in life. The one place that is therapeutic and peaceful. Literally, no other place I would rather be. Barn Sweet Barn.
Eve continues to amaze us with her motherly skills. She's doing a great job, and we love watching the new lambs grow and learn. I hurry home so fast after work these days. I can't wait to see everyone and how they are doing. And how everyone is doing. Speaking of, Whisper has surgery scheduled for 11/13 for her leg. She will be out of commission for 2-4 months recovering. The new LGD puppies will step up to the plate and be Levi's side kicks. That will be a circus in itself. Things continue to evolve and change. Everything is the same, yet nothing is the same. Another lambing event is coming......SOON. Belle will have her turn.
Soon.
Cyndi
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