I’ve felt the need to talk to my 12 year old self lately.
I’m now living a life much as she imagined. And I feel so grateful that she is now present with me at all times, and that I now live life in alignment with her. Because you see, prior to my liberation, I did not have the capacity to truly hear - or feel her presence.
So I’ve been in the process of writing her a letter….to help her understand why I abandoned her for so many years. And betrayed my own grown self at the same time.
As difficult as this has been to complete, draft after draft, I do plan on sharing it…..in a few days.
It feels heavy, but also, it lightens the load that I carry by releasing it to my 12 year old self who deserves the world. And nothing less.
Soon, my friends,
Cyndi
She would love the Chick Flower 🌼
Please enjoy, and do not pick this rare flower. One pedal has fallen off already 🥀
2 comments:
It has been soooooooo long I'm not sure I recall what my 12-year old self thought about her future! I'm glad you've gotten to a place in life where you feel good about the present and the future. One of my favorite expressions (paraphrasing and I don't remember the source) is to leave the past behind and "don't look back, you aren't going that way". Doesn't eliminate the need to process emotions of course. That can be so hard but also very cleansing. I should probably do it more myself. LOVE the chick flower! :)
Hi Kim! Yes, our 12 year old self seems eons ago - but somehow those hopes and dreams she had have always stayed with me. Thank you for sharing your fav expression - that's a keeper!
(Taking a page from The Book of Brooke) Fav quote: "That can be so hard but also very cleansing. I should probably do it more myself."
Thanks for spending the last 11 years together on the blog! ❤️
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